i sit in my old crabapple tree
in my childhood yard.
my legs dangle
my hands hold a branch
i look around,
taking in the house and the cloudy sky that day
not expecting this small adventure of mine
to be my last.
i am sprinting now, panting and tired and breathless and weak-
im in an apocalyptic world now, this is what i grew to see.
this is new, and yet it isnt,
the shadows that chase me froth at the mouth,
but i
i can't go,
please, please not yet.
i cough up blood, the spatter of it on my hands
metallic and disgusting-
i find a ditch beside me,
leading to a slow running creek-
i don't have much of a choice, i don't have much of anything anymore,
and it is clear to me that as i roll down towards injury and freezing water,
that all that i worried about before
all the tears i spilt
before all of this, being here, now,
was so trivial and stupid.
i yearn for my backyard again,
i yearn to sit
in my old crabapple tree.
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