continuum ; s. minter

40.

!odette¡

13 missed calls
17 unread messages
2 voicemails

all from simon.

i miss him too

but i suppose not as much as he misses me.

maybe i should go see him, i don't want him to be sad.

not over someone like me

i'm not enough to cry over

*

"hey, vik."

he smiles before nodding for me to come in, opening the door a little wider.

"i assume you're here to see simon, he's really been in a rough mood lately. i'm worried about him you know."

maybe i should fully forgive him.

it's not like me to hold a grudge against anyone but myself.

maybe i have forgiven him, i just haven't forgiven myself.

that keeps me away

the closer we are then more lonely we feel, but i'm beginning to think that i might just be a little lonely either way.

"simon?" i say with a small knock on the closed bedroom door.

"vik, i said i wasn't- wait...odette?"

the door swings open as a disheveled looking simon comes at me with a big hug.

"hi simon." i say as i feel a tear hit my head.

i can smell the pungent alcohol scent radiating off of him, specifically scotch and tequila.

"i've missed you baby- can i call you that?" i says as he nuzzles into my hair.

"of course you can, i want to tell you something. you can decide wether you want to pursue this relationship any further."

"o-ok." he says sounding a little bit nervous as to what might come out of my mouth next.

"josh and i.....have been having a sexual relationship- and i-i like it."

i can feel him stop moving as i look up, a little concerned.

"wha- actually i don't care! i just want to hold you in my arms forever because i miss you so much."

i smile into his chest as he smooths his hands up and down the small of my back.

"this also means that we can't be in a relationship- not like before. but i still want to hang out." i say as he freezes again before letting out a large breath.

"i know...c-can i kiss you?"

"go ahead."

then he kissed me, and i kissed back.

our lips fitting together like that puzzle feeling i've longed for.

his rough lips against my soft ones, that feeling i've missed.

i've missed him.

because....i love him.