Words I Can Never Say

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october 10

i regret the day i met you, but i cant forget you.

i regret that i fell for you, but i can't get you off my mind.

i regret being with you, but the memories are still encrypted in my head.

i regret you, but why do i still look for you.. ?

you made me happy, you made me smile.

you made me feel like i was worth something.

but you're an imbecile.

you're a jerk.

you're a brute.

you're a nuisance.

and yet, you still linger inside my head.

i want to forget you.

i need to let you go.

i need myself to heal.

i just can't find the strength to do it.

i feel so stupid

knowing that i'm still holding on to something that i should let go.

- vem