Broken And Lost (MCR × Reader)

why me?

I got up and did the usual, except I was happy because today is Friday. I didn't eat because I would be late if i did, so I walked to the bus stop where the names started being spat at me again. So i just simply put in my headphones, and waited for the bus. Finally when it came I got on and into an empty seat, like usual. I heard names being spat at me so I again put on my headphones. I kept thinking to myself why me? I didn't do anything to them so why me? Finally we arrived at school and I ran off the bus and inside school, so I wouldn't be pushed again, but for my luck the boys weren't there yet, so you were stuck alone.
~~~Time skipe~~~
It's now third period, which none of the boys were in. You hadn't seen them all day, maybe they skipped you thought.
~~~~time skip~~~~
So the guys didn't skip because their at the lunch table, but when you sat down they all got up and walked away, what did I do? You thought really confused. You wanted to ask them but they were no where to be seen and you didn't eat lunch again
~~~ another time skip wooo lol~~~
At music you didn't even bother to go near Mikey and frank as you had another free period again. For the period you kind of just sat in your desk and cried. Out of the corner of your eye, you saw frank and Mikey looking at you but you didn't really care
▪▪▪the next 2 weeks were the same▪▪▪
The past 2 weeks have been the same, the guys ignored me but the bullying got worse, and more cuts were added to your arm, everyday. Finally you walked up to Mikey during music "what the fuck is going on with you guys, the last time I checked I didn't do shit too you" he didn't answer but frank looked up "Yea frank what's going on, or are you gonna spit new insults towards me" you spat, tears were ready to flow "oh wait maybe you guys just wanted me for sex, well thanks for making me believe I could actually have real friends" you hissed, than ran out of the classroom. You waited until next period where ray and Gerard were so you could ask then. Finally the bell rang and you ran into the classroom, it was art so you guys weren't doing anything. "What the actual fuck Gerard, do you wanna tell me what's going on, or are you just gonna spit insults at me?" You sounded furious, Gerard said nothing so you turned to ray "I don't remember doing anything to you guys, but you guys made me think I could have friends, when in actuality the other 3 only wanted me for sex" you hissed at ray and than you ran, and you ran home not caring anymore you just wanted to be gone. By the time you got home school was over and your phone was buzzing, and it was the boys sending you messages and the unknown number was ray. You had no interest but instead, you just brought out the razors. You made sure that you would bleed a lot. And you did but not enough to die. When you finally decided to wrap up your arms, you wraped them up and your phone was still going off and you heard a knock on your door, it was "them" you said with anger. You opened the door "what the fuck do you guys want, you ignore me for 2 weeks and when I finally say something to you, you guys wanna come to my house" you spat sounding extremely angry "you weren't answering your phone so we thought that may-" you cut Gerard off "you thought I tried suicide again, please if I try it again I'm gonna make sure I succeed, plus why the fuck do you actually fucking care, you guys were just more cuts on my arms" you said "w-w-what" Mikey said, you took off the bandages because the bleeding might have stopped now "see these are because of you guys" you said wanting to cry, but you were to mad "how are those from us" frank spat "how frank, dont get me started you insulted me which put cuts there, and then you guys ignored me like you guys were using me, one day you guys are nice, and the next you ignore for 2 weeks" you said "we're sorry" ray said sounding kinda sad, but you didn't care "no you guys aren't sorry" you said your voice sounding shaky "can me and (Y/N) have a moment" Gerard asked, so you let him inside "we heard about your "incident" the whole thing not just what you told Mikey, we got pretty pissed that you didn't tell us" Gerard stated "shit great, go hate me like everyone else, even tho that wasn't a reason to ignore me for 2 fucking weeks" you hissed and you went to go say something but Gerard crashed his lips to yours, and surprisingly you kissed back, when you guys broke apart you didn't know how to feel. "We have to go, unless you want one of us to stay" he asked with hope in his voice "you all can stay" you said, and so the other 3 came in and Mikey ran up to you and hugged you, than the rest watched him kiss you, they got mad. "My parents are on a business trip, if u guys wanna sleep over" you offered "Yea we would love to" Gerard screeched
~ Time skip~ (by the way it's Friday when they sleep over)
You guys ended up playing seven minutes in heaven and you and frank had to go in your room for seven minutes and as soon as you got in there frank started to kiss you, all you could think is, Are they doing this to fuck with me, or eachother, you pulled away "What's wrong baby" frank asked "well don't call me baby, because were not dating and I feel like you guys are using me because all of you except ray, had kissed me in front of each other" you said "no were not using you, fuck your so dumb, ugh you fat ugly bitch" frank said out of anger and you ran back to the living room crying, you didn't play for the rest of the game and the rest went to the kitchen except Mikey "what happened with you and frank" he asked sounding pretty concerned "well I asked him if u guys were using me because all of you except ray had kissed me in front of each other, and then frank said I was fucking dumb, and a fat ugly bitch" tears started rushing down your face and next thing you know you hear Mikey scream "get the fuck out frank" "what got your panties in a twist" frank said laughing "you, why would you call (Y/N) that, she asked you a question and your the one that's hurting her so get out" Mikey screamed, than frank walked up to you and said "do you want me to leave baby" "I asked you not to call me that" you spat "I'll call you what i wanna call you" he hissed "this is why you don't have a chance with me frank, because your mean, and I swear you only want to fuck me" he looked hurt, like he was ready to cry and he ran out "(Y/N) Are you alright" Gerard asked with Mikey and ray behind him, you nodded your head yes, Mikey slept in the extra bed you had in your room and Gerard and ray slept on the 2 beds that the guest bedroom had. They decided Mikey was gonna sleep in your room because he stood up for you and the other 2 were tired.
"Mikey" you said "mhm" he responded "can you come cuddle with me I'm cold" you asked "yea anything for you" Mikey smiled and walked over to your bed and got under the covers, you looked up at him and kissed him, he kissed back and it was passionate and you felt sparks

MIKEY'S POV
She kissed me and I kissed back I felt fireworks in my stomach and it was passionate, I can't get enough of this girl can I?
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Sorry for the short chapter, also sorry for making frank the bad guy, but somewhere in the story he will become a good person and will you end up with Mikey, find out next chapter
P.S. I'll fix the mistakes later I promise :)