I am held captive by chains
That constrain my veins
And all that remains
Is pain
And i'm sorry but i can not explain
Why my brain refrains from positive thoughts
But instead allots negativity by the masses to rot within me
I am sorry once again that the girl you depicted in your head
Is not me, but you see these chains, don't let me free and actually
They try to make me be the girl you depicted in your head
You see its really funny because i dont want to be that girl
I am not that girl
And it's about time you stop seeing me as that girl.
Because it's causing insanity to unfurl and leaves me
Spiraling through rugged terrains
I'm breathing but i'm going insane
With these thoughts please make it stop
I feel faint like i could drop any second now
Somehow i wish i could disallow these thoughts
That leave me distraught
But happiness cannot be bought
Memories i thought i forgot
Linger triggering aftershocks
I'm a stack of blocks that appear strong but fragile enough a simple rock
Will cause my collapse
And i'll begin to relapse and start once again
From where I began
With no plan
For anything
Because everything no longer seems worth the pain
I am held captive by chains
The constraints my veins
And all that remains is pain
Please make it stop
Thoughts that come back to attack
Setting drawbacks
Triggering an emotional heart attack,
except it physically hurts,
like something within is building up and refusing to burst
