You'll Never Be Mine - Roseph

You'll Never Be Mine

He presses a chaste kiss against my lips, as my body quivers in his arms.

My heart throbs, I hate this.

His warmth, his voice, his touch, always leaves me wanting him more.

It's moments like this, where I really don't want him to leave.

I graze my shaky thumb across his cheek.

He pulls my body closer.

Damnit.

I wonder if he knows how much this hurts me.

His breathe on my neck, causes chills to tingle up my arms and spine.

Does he feel the same ache in his heart when we make love, knowing this is all we'll ever be.

I'm his escape, the person he can be himself around.

I know him and Mary, have a lot of problems in their relationship.

He needs someone there for him, someone that can make him feel loved.

I couldn't be happier to be that person but, I know he'll never be mine.

His visits are more and more scarce lately.

And they're always the same.

He pushes me against the wall, and removes my clothes, piece by piece.

As long as he's happy, I won't mind.

"I love you."

He says, as he kisses me again.

I try my hardest to blink my tears away, but my mind his racing

I don't think I'll ever have the stomach to ask him, if he means that.

There's so many things I want to ask and tell him however, knowing myself I know I never will.

"I'll be back back soon."

He whispers into my ear, deeply

I gasp a little, forgetting we were in this position.

I get so caught up in my own thoughts, I sometimes forget what's going on around me

He stares into my eyes, slowly running his hand up and down my waist

My breathing is hazy and wavered, as he softly pecks me on the temple

"I'll miss you baby."

My tears returned, pouring faster than they have in awhile.

I push my face away from his.

"Robert, is everything alright?"

No, nothing ever is.

"Yeah I'm fine, just really tired."

My eyes grow heavier than ever, I haven't been getting a lot of sleep in these last few days.

I really just want to curl underneath my blanket, and shove my face into my pillow.

"Do you want me to stay?"

Joseph, don't me cry harder.

"No no, you have to go home. I just need to sleep."

I can tell he isn't quite buying my lies, but he exhales.

"Alright, call me if you need anything."

I sheepishly nod my head.

Joseph's expression is somber, and sad.

He pulls me into an embrace, I rest my head against his chest.

He shushes me, as he rubs his palms in calming circles around my back.

"You know I love you, right?"

I cling to his body, tighter.

" I know."

My words tremble, as they fall from my lips.

He kisses me deeply, one last time before, exiting through the front door.

I run my fingers in my messy unkempt hair.

His scent lingers on my clothes.

I wipe my eyes, as I head into my bedroom.

I trip over a few bottles, as I collapse myself onto my bed.

My vision's blurry, as I sob into my pillow.

I can't seem to get him out of my mind.

I should know this is all we'll ever be, I should know he'll never be mine.

Fresh tears start streaming down my hot cheeks. I feel my body grow weak as I drift off to sleep, Joseph never leaving my mind.

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Thank you so much for reading! I love these two so much, and I had this idea for awhile now. I'm going to be starting a Roseph Imagines book soon so, this was just a little starter. Again, thank you so much! Hope you have an amazing day!

- Kay