i have this pain in my stomach
that makes me want to vomit
i have these thoughts in my head
that make me want to die
so maybe i should stop
maybe i should try to stop the feeling
to try things that make me happy
but i dont want to
this feeling is so addicting
i dont want it to go away
i want it to hurt me more
why wont it get stronger
the feeling's going away as i write this
but i dont want it to stop
i want it to get stronger
to make me cry until i cant take it anymore
until i grab the pills
and i take them
until i grab the blade
and i cut my skin
but im too weak to do that
im not strong enough
and now the feeling's going away
it leaves me just like everyone else
but there's still hope
even though it's leaving now
it can come back
there's always tomorrow
~mel
