I always smile...
In class...
In my house...
In front of my friends...
In front of my family...
In front of everyone...
They see the smile in my face...
The sound of my laugh...
But never the chaos in my heart...
That can't be tame by now...
I'm suprise how I'm still didn't won any awards by now...
They really believed that I was happy...
That I didn't have any problems in my life...
That I didn't been through any pain...
But they don't know what have I been through...
The sleepless night....
Crying myself to sleep is a habit by now...
Cutting my self with knife and razor is as normal as breathing...
But I still smile...
In hope to make the aches numb...
So I smile...
To cover my tears...
To cover my scar...
To cover my pain...
