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by Jesscaramel

by Jesscaramel

*talk of sensitive topics*

Y/n) POV
Today is the day I'm gonna tell him about everything in my past including why I moved to this school.
"Hey Tyler want to come to my house after school I need to talk to you" I said at the lunch table where me Tyler and josh sat
"Sure" Tyler said looking worried about what I just said
I knew he wouldn't understand maybe it would be better if you were dead everyone would enjoy that. He will never like you he's to good for you you better just give up
" shut up" I shouted at the top of my lungs so everyone could hear me and they all turned around and stared at me
I ran off crying and didn't turn back till I reached the bathroom. When I reached to one of the cubicles I ran inside and locked the door I pulled out a razor blade that I had in there in case I needed it. I pulled up my hoodie that I had on and started cutting and crying at the same time while listening to the voices telling me
You deserve this
Your a failure
He would never like you I told you
Why didn't you listen to me
Once I finished cutting and listening to the voices I pulled my hoodie down and put my hood up and walked outside of the bathroom to see Tyler there waiting for you. I stared into his eyes and he looked at my hands to see my hands covered in blood you pulled up my hoodie and saw both my arms covered in words that I cut using the blade. He looked into my eyes.
"(Y/n) why does it say I will never love you?" He said looking confused.
"Because you never will the voices told me so they said they know everything" I looking down at my feet.
He pulled my face with his hands to make me look at his beautiful brown eyes "they are wrong cause I have a voice called blurry who tells me you will never love me look" he pulled up his hoodie sleeve to reveal some writing that said (y/n) will never love you. I looked into his eyes for a while and felt another pair of lips smash onto mine. I was suprised for a second then relaxed and joined in. Josh came up behind us so we didn't realise and then said aww goals and walked off. We stopped kissing and saw that it was nearly time for class we both had the same class together so we walked silently to class. I always sat next to josh and Tyler sat next to my other best friend so me and josh started talking and I realised I haven't rolled my hoodie sleeve down yet so I quickly rolled it down but it was to late josh had already noticed.
He looked at me concerned.
Then looked at my arm and back at me.
"(Y/n) have you been cutting"
I looked down at my feet and nodded
" oh it's alright me and Tyler are here for you if you need anything remember that"
I looked at him at looked at him with so much pain in my eyes I didn't know what to do.
He looked at my with concern and then back at his work.
The bell finally rang I ran outside before Tyler could get there. He already beat me and I didn't know how that was possible.
He walked home in silence and he looked at my arm again closely.
"(Y/n) this looks really deep you need stiches"
"No ty I need to tell you something"
As we got into my house I chucked my bag across my room and sat on the bed. Tyler sat down next to me and I told him everything that I moved here because of the voices and the attempted suicide and I just broke down into my emotional state as my eyeliner dripped down my face and Tyler had a few tears falling into his lap I watched them fall perfectly into his lap
God he's so perfect but he would never like me I thought
I could hold on to him for hours on end and never get bored
"Jess I've got to go and see josh" he said wiping his tears away
I looked at him plastering a smile on my face even though inside I was hurting so bad
He walked out of the door and went to his house which was next to mine

Tyler POV
"Josh we need to get this right" I said panicking
"Well have you wrote the song" he said calmly
"Yes of course I have" I said pacing up and down my room
"Well then let me hear it"
I played josh the song on my piano in my house
My brother walked in and started clapping "is that for (y/n)" he said
"Yes why? what do you want?"
He just walked away. Me and josh just practiced all night because the graduation was the next day. We already asked the principal if we could do this and he said yes.
God I'm so scared