Part 10

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I wake up and checking my phone I noticed I had ten missed calls all from Josh. I hear footsteps so I put the phone down and sit up. Chloe walks in and says "mom says breakfast is ready" and I say "thank you I'll be down in a minute". Chloe starts walking away and then she turns and says "why were you crying last night?" and I say "night" in a whisper confused then turn to her and say "what time was this?" and she says "you woke me up around 11". I was very confused about what was going on but I look at her and to not worry I say "I think I was watching a sad movie, I won't wake you next time". Chloe smiles and heads downstairs. I go over to Sydney's room to check on her and lucky her was asleep. I head over to her bed and calmly wake her up. She groans then turns and says "is breakfast ready?" I say "yeah but um listen I need to ask you something, did you hear me crying last night?" and she then says "no why were you?". If she didn't hear me crying then either Chloe was lying or something is going on that nobody knows about. I stand up and say "no but Chloe says she heard me crying last night" and then Sydney says "well maybe the kiddo is lying, who knows".

Josh's POV

I wake up and hear my mom come in to ask me how Belle was. I sit up and say "she's fine? why are you asking?" and then she says "well honey you were on the phone with her yesterday". I don't remember talking to Belle except for when we greeted our parents home at her house. I then try and figure what happened and ask all the questions possible "when was this? what were we talking about? do you remember if I was drinking? are you sure it was Belle? and  what was the last thing I said?". My mom grabs my hand and says "sweetie it was Belle you made me say hi this was at around 10:30 you guys were talking about graduation and how life is going I don't remember the last thing you said but I remember you crying at the end must've been an emotional conversation" she says as she gets up to leave my room. I call her back in and ask "mom did I have any alcohol?" and she says "did we ever allow you any? didn't think so" and walks away. I didn't remember anything I don't remember talking to Belle or crying or any of this. I get a text from Courtney saying "babe I'm on my way to the salon I'll be at your house in half an hour". I ignore the text because at this point I just wanted to check on Belle. I shower then head over to Belle's house for breakfast.

Belle's POV

I hear a knock at the door and so I go get it and it was Josh. He asks if he can have breakfast here and so I tell him to grab a plate and head to Sydney's room when he's done. I head upstairs and start telling Sydney what was going on. I finish and lay on Sydney's bed then I hear Josh knock and come in. I sit up a little and then Josh says "Belle I actually wanted to talk to you alone". I got worried then I say "oo..k well let's go to my room". We get to my room and then I hear him say "so my mom woke me up and said we were on the phone last night" is that why I was crying? he seemed to have more answers than me. I let him continue and the last thing he says is "yeah apparently I ended up crying but I don't remember any of it". I tell him everything I knew including the fact that I ended the night crying. We spend a good two minutes trying to figure out what happened then I hear Sydney say "hey Belle I get you were worried but can you take down the cameras in our rooms now?" and then I say "oh my gosh! the cameras I put up to check every night we were alone!". We agree to play back the one from last night and this was the conversation.

~conversation~

Josh- I like you and you like me of course it'd be fair
Belle- Josh what are we doing? you're with Courtney
Josh- I know but the kiss Belle I can't stop thinking about it
Belle- you must be in a mood because I know you don't mean that I'm just a booty call you cant do this to me Josh you can't
Josh- Belle no of course not but I can't be flirty with you? I mean I've always liked you
Belle- sorry Josh no
Josh- whatever I thought I was doing the right thing trying to be your friend and even flirt every couple times you needed it but I guess I was wrong you know what Belle I can't stand it why the hell would you call if you didn't want to discuss something like this
Belle- ....... I like you now isn't that enough of a reason?
Josh- no it's not because it's all of a sudden when I have Courtney and you're messing this up for me I really like her I like you too but you obviously don't want me you know what Belle just... just forget it have a great night hope you fond someone else's life to ruin goodnight

Belle's POV

I stayed silent because I could not believe that just happened. Josh has his face buried in his hands and so I just look at him until he can look back at me. He slowly comes up and says "I'm sorry I don't even remember this I would never say this" I then say "yeah but you did and I just want to know why we can't remember any of this". Josh grabs my hand then says "please don't look at me differently I just want to let you know that wasn't me Belle" then Belle says "it's ok Josh I know I've made things complicated" and Josh says "not it's not like that". I get up and head to my room and he follows me and I try and tell him to leave alone and then he picks me up and carries me to my bed and slowly puts me down on it and holds me down as he says "listen to me! I would never want to hurt you Belle I love you". 

At that moment he leans in and just as we're about to kiss I hear Sydney say "ahem" we both look at her and then look back at each other and continue to kiss. Then I hear Josh say "Belle I didn't tell you this ever before because I thought you'd never want me but I have always liked you I would leave any girl in a heart beat for you" and then I say "I love you and all but this would be so much more romantic if you didn't have me pinned". Josh sits down and lets me go then as I get up I say "even Courtney?" and he takes a moment before he says "that's the thing we've spent some time together and I really like her". I felt crushed but I didn't want to show it so I say "I'm happy for you I really am" and he says "back then I would've crawled to you before even saying that, but she really is cool she knows we're bestfriends and she's ok with us spending so much time together, she doesn't get jealous, and she's supportive of what I do plus she's loving not just with me but with you too". He was right Courtney was sweet with everyone including me and I know it's not sucking up because before her and Josh were even a thing she was always sweet. I look at Josh and say "I know you like me and I like you too but at the moment I need you to know I'm not going to wait, if I find a guy I hope you'll be happy for me too" and he says "wasn't I in your last one?" then smiles and hugs me.

Josh ends up leaving and I head to Sydney's temporary room to talk. Sydney says "you know he may be sweet and all but some of the things he has done with you is cheating on Courtney! stop it before someone gets hurt I mean this girl trusts you". I felt so guilty after all that Sydney had said but she was right I had no right to do that to Courtney. Sydney then says "so I was thinking I'm headed to finish college why don't you start it at the same time?" and I say "really? I mean I was thinking about a gap year" and she says "yeah but you want to go if you take a gap year you might change your mind" and I say "you're right you're finishing it where? and she says "well that's the thing I don't think you're going to like it much but Jersey New Jersey State" and I say "woah well I don't know anybody there but I would give it a try if you promise to not lose me and leave me alone". Sydney grabs my hand in comfort and says "look Josh and Courtney are going to be together for a while so might as well go meet new people make friends maybe find a lover" and I then thought it sounded nice.

Josh's POV

I didn't want to be with Courtney anymore I knew for a fact I wanted Belle but there was no way to tell her that without confusing her. She might not even want me anymore so I refused to tell her sense there was no point. I told myself Courtney was the one for me but believing that only lasted so long. I kept thinking to myself "what are you doing?, you want Belle, get her before it's too late" I drive where I knew I needed to go and when I get there I park and knock on the door. It opens up and there it was the answer to all my problems. "Hello" I say smiling.

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⏰ Last updated: May 07, 2020 ⏰

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