New Atlanta{On Hold}

Six-Teen

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"Man I'm so stupid"I said to myself as I washed the sex scent off my body it was disgusting that we did it in a house with kids but it's not like they heard us they had the tv up loud fussing over the game 2k 17 if I'm not mistaking

"No you not" Quavo whispered on my neck I guess I was so zoned out that I didn't hear him come in the shower

"I think it's best if you leave"I sighed and rubbed my rag over my stomach

"So you feel guilty for having sex with me ? You had a choice and you choose to let me continue so we both play a part in this!" He turned me around aggressively

"Oh really?" I asked as I turned off the shower water getting out and grabbing my towel

"Yeah , you could've said stop" he came up behind me giving me a death stare

"Maybe I didn't want you to it's just that I'm pregnant and my hormones and shit is all over the place like what would you do if you was in my shoes?" I wiped lotion on my legs

"Would've continued"he put on his clothes he wore

"You're just saying that but fuck it we not together and I don't think we're going to get together any time soon"I looked over at him while he squinted his eyes at me

"You for real?"he asked with his mouth slightly hanging open

"Yessss"I rolled my eyes as I put on my plain white v neck

"I still love you and I'll always love you but you taking it to far it was a mistake"he tried to hug me

"So you telling me she made a mistake and fell on your dick?"I asked as his nodded

"You so fucking stupid get out!"I pushed him as he grabbed my wrist

"Look I'm really sorry"a tear slipped out of his eye making me walk out the room as he followed me and grabbed me and took me into the den

"Baby look I'm sorry I really didn't mean to cheat I was being dumb I just thought what you would forgive me and that's what I'm use to and I see you're different I just want us to be happy again"he grabbed my hands as tears slipped out of my eyes

"Quavious I've been lien too and it's just that its things that I didn't want to tell you and there are reasons why it's hard to forgive it's just that life is to short for mistakes" I wiped a tear that slipped out of my eyes

"You can tell me" he looked in my eyes as I started to tell him everything

"It's just sometimes you have to forgive when you're in a serious relationship but I've been In too many relationships when I have got hurt and I learned to not forgive easily because one of my relationships was the worst ever and I wouldn't even wish on my enemy to be in a relationship like that , when you're getting threatened every other day you're getting your ass beat you have to lie about being a virgin so you won't get touch , and when the male partner don't give a fuck and just rape you and you have miscarriages and shit and it obviously got to a point when you got tired of using makeup to cover up your bruises and just let them show and it's like you love him so much that you'll always blame his actions on yourself saying "oh its was my fault" and never knew what he did as "job wise" and when you find out it's like a nightmare you just want to escape but you can't because he have handcuffs on your wrist it's like your chained up , And you always wondered why he buy you all this expensive shit when you never asked for it and how he afford to live in a big ass house it's confusing and you find out you have enemy's you never knew about  and it hurts you because you don't want to live that life you don't want to get yelled at because dinner wasn't cooked yet you don't want to get yelled at because the house isn't clean perfectly you don't want to get punched in your face , your face is beauty it's a key to life and so is your heart  and that's another thing I lied about , like just coming to Atlanta to find better opportunities but it was also to escape a nightmare to escape real life to escape a criminal the devil and its like the first time you tried to leave it never worked you was stuck in a basement for days and hours without food you was bleeding continuously , you got beat to death and put into the hospital , you lost a big percentage of blood and was in a coma for 8 months and was on life support and was 2 days from the doctors pulling the plug on you and you could've died from that but you never did and that's because god had other plans for you and another path for you to continue on and it's like everyone thought that god was going to call your name to go home and in life you knew your family loved you dearly and if it was in the case of death they would feel the same and it would've broke their heart to lose you but the thought of knowing you wouldn't go alone kind of made them feel a little better and knowing that you would've left peaceful memories and knowing your love is their guide and the chain would've been broken but some day linked again
But today I'm just thankful that God has helped me through everything that I had been through and thankful he wakes me up every morning and I am happy that I even in a few more months get to wake up to a happy child is a blessing." I said as I wiped tears that slipped out of his eyes

"I forgive you"I kissed his lips

Am I stupid?

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Y'all this kinda brought tears to my eyes

-Jayla🌈