All made up as always. Sorry for any mistakes. Hope you like it :) x
Inspired my the song - 'Blame it on the rain' by He Is We
You got me caught in all this mess. I guess we can blame it on the rain.
It was a good old Geordie winter and the rain was lashing down on us as we left Byker one evening. I had stupidly left my coat behind and was now shivering as I picked up the pace to get home just that little bit quicker. I had always had feelings for Anthony ever since we became mates 3 years ago but I was never sure if they were real. As the pair of us almost sprinted back to mine that night Ant stopped me in my tracks. Without saying a word he took his already soaked jacket off and placed it over my shoulders. Instantly I felt warmer but it wasn't just from the coat. Inside the feelings were growing causing a warmth the spread throughout my small frame. This was the first time my feelings were confirmed and began to feel almost real. Maybe he feels the same way?
My pain is knowing I can't have you. I can't have you.
Tell me. Does she look at you the way I do?
Try to understand the words you say
And the way you move?
Does she get the same big rush, when you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?
Tell me, am I crazy?
A few weeks later I was sat on a chair in the corner of the room. We had just finished shooting the final scene of the day and I was waiting for Ant to get changed. He bounced into the room like he always does when he wants something. I've learnt to read his body language perfectly and I know he's about to say something I'm not going to like. "Listen Declan mate I'm going out with one of the lasses tonight so I'm not coming for tea" He smiles and thats just enough to get me to forgive him. "Yeah alright mate see ya tomorrow then" I get up trying not to look disappointed and go to walk away. I'm stopped by Ant's hand on my shoulder and he spins me effortlessly pulling me into a hug. Instantly I fell the familiar feeling into the pit of my stomach and the rush hits me once again. I try to pull away but he holds me so securely and he whispers into my ear. "I'm sorry Decs" before pulling away and giving that beautiful smile once again.
I catch my breath.
The one you took the moment you entered the room.
My heart, it breaks at the thought of her holding you.
Tell me, am I crazy? Or is this more than a crush?
The party with all the Byker lot was in full swing. And it was going fine until you arrived, with her. I think about leaving multiple times as you make your way towards me but I can't get myself to move from the spot. She's clinging onto you as you walk together. Both look so happy but deep down I wish it was me. Me who had their arm wrapped around your waist. Me who felt that loving touch as you brush the hair from my face. I wish it was me who felt those soft, red lips touch mine. My daydream is cut short as you arrive in front of me and I'm brought back into reality. I really hoped this was just a silly crush but my heart pounds just smelling your aftershave and I know this isn't going to end unless I tell you the truth.
Maybe I'm alone in this, but I find peace in solitude
Knowing if I had but just one kiss. This whole room would be glowing.
We'd be glowing.
Ever since that day in the rain my life seemed to spiral out of control. I had forced myself to believe I would always and forever be alone. I had lost all hope of Ant ever feeling the same. Maybe if I had the guts to just go for it I wouldn't be in this mess but I can't face loosing him completely.
After school one day I saw Ant walking towards me. He didn't look very happy in fact he looked miserable. I jumper down off the wall and walk up to him. "Anth you alright man?" I ask trying to comfort my clearly upset friend. "She broke up with us" He sniffed. "Ahh Ant man why?" I say angrily annoyed at the fact he was feeling heart broken. "Said I was being blind and obviously needed time alone to realise what, who I really wanted" He said not looking up from the floor. Hearing his words I almost fall to the floor. I love this boy but he was being so stupid it hurt. Just as I was about to speak I feel my hand being squeezed and I'm pulled down the nearest alley. "Anth what the..?"
He doesn't speak just looks me straight in the eyes. Before I can think any further his lips are softly touching mine and I almost melt at the sensation. It was everything I had ever imagined and more. "I'm sorry for making you wait Declan" He breathes and for once I can't read the boy in front of me. It was the first time I'd ever seen this expression. Maybe it's the look of love.
