Like a rain out of nowhere, my trial hits me. It's funny how the rainy season matches my choked heart; however, this trial is not funny at all. It's as though I'm walking on eggshells; one wrong move then bam! a sudden K.O. comes!!!
Dealing with this is hard, even if it's just the first or second day. Sometimes, I feel like I'm having panic attacks about it. It makes me so frustrated...and I'm also frustrated with myself!
I know that God is with me, and I believe that; yet He feels so far away. His Word is filled with comforts, but for me, the effect varies. It either helps me a lot or little. Sometimes it doesn't.
I'm so confused by all of this...
It hurts so much.
I know that I focus on trials—He told me in many occasions that I should count my blessings, not add up my trials. I also know that I'm not letting His peace pass through. It was me who was blocking the peace passing through because of my constant doubts. In fact, I'm thinking that I may have a thorny ground. I don't know...
Well, I know that these are some of the reasons why I'm like this.
Nevertheless, God comforts me and takes care of me despite my constant doubts, worries, fears, and etc. He's so good and so amazing! He's been patient and faithful to me throughout all of this. I can't thank Him enough. Praise be to His Most Holy Name!
Today, He constantly gave me comfort! Tonight, He reminded me He loves me with an everlasting love! He's grace and love is so ineffable!!! I know and I believe that all things work together for good (Romans 8:28), so whatever this trial may be, I know that something good will come out of it!
Guys, I'd also like your prayers and help. If you have anything you'd , please say it to me (privately or comments).
Have a blessed day everyone!
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A Teen Christian's Journal
बेतरतीबI hope that others will be helped by the experiences I've had. I'm not perfect, and there's a lot I need to work on, so I hope that you will help me too. Have a blessed day! (I might re-edit finished chapters.)
