Chest pains.
1
2
3
4 breaths.
Say something,
calm me down.
It's not easy to do alone,
make it stop.
Chest tightens.
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8 breaths.
Don't you see it,
how you're causing this?
I was a little girl,
you made me think I need to be grown.
You made me yours,
I had to grow up.
Time takes toll,
I don't want to be grown.
Wild and careless,
but if I want that I'll have to break away?
I can't go without you,
who will help me breathe?
Fingers tapping on your thigh.
1
2
3
4
5 taps.
Teach me to breathe,
how to contain myself.
The world is wearing a cover up,
and you showed me what it's really like.
Give me reality,
make me learn.
Fist clenching.
1
2
3 clenches.
The world is dirty,
full of secrets and problems.
You held my hand,
telling me every detail of it all.
Holding my face,
telling me to breathe.
Click.
Click.
Click.
But you're too late,
its over.
I'm growing without you,
I don't need to hold your hand.
Living by your words,
oh how safe they kept me.
But what if it was a trap,
how could you do this to me?
It's okay,
I don't need this.
Breathing is hard without you,
but you've been gone.
I didn't notice,
my lungs inhale and exhale on their own.
