At the Mist of Dawn

- chapter two -

I sit on the couch, my eyes on Jacob but my mind elsewhere. I couldn't believe Edward was here. I would have died the day he left me but I kept living for Charlie and Jacob.

When Edward left me, I felt like my world had ended, but then, Jacob came, like a light and healed me wherever Edward had broken me. Edward, even his name sounds disgusting, who does he think he is, coming back here, thinking I would leave Jacob and my life, for him. I would of done that, but I knew he never loved me.

I NEVER WANTED YOU

I shake my head from tha nightmare, he had said it from his own mouth, that he didn't want me. I had thought that maybe he was lying. But I could see from his cold topaz eyes and from his face, that it was true. He had never wanted me, I had always thought, why someone like Edward Cullen would want a girl like me.

Even when all my friends had asked me how someone like Edward Cullent could fall for a girl like me, I would think that they were just jealous, maybe they were right. I was just a plain, ordinary, clumsy human called Bella, he wasn't like me. But, to Jacob, I was beautiful. He didn't care about the way I looked, he loved me for who I am.

I whispered Jacob's name lovingly. Jacob, how could I leave Jacob, he was my true love and I would never leave him, for anyone. Before, I had believed Edward was everything, my love, life, the reason to live. He had believed leaving me was keeping me safe, but what he didn't know was that danger always followed me, after all, I was a danger magnet.

"Bella," Jacob exclaimed.

I looked at Jacob, I didn't know that he had moved beside me.

"What Jacob?!" I shouted, then began to cry.

"Bella," Jacob repeated.

"I'm sorry Jacob, I was so upset and I took all my anger out on you," I cried, shoving my hands to my face.

"Bella, don't cry," Jacob whispered, wrapping his arms around my waist.

I laid my head gently on Jacob's shoulder, the tears finally drying. Jacob took his hands and held my face in them, his warm brown eyes glazing into mine.

"Bella," Jacob whispered, brushing my hair.

Everything Jacob did, reminded me of Edward, it wasn't Jacob's fault, no, of course not. I began wheezing, struggling hard to breath. Jacob shook me, anger on his face.

"It hurts," I whispered.

"I hate that bloodsucker, leaving and returning, thinking he can come whenever he wants," Jacob moaned in pain.

"No, Jacob," I mumbled. Jacob took a deep breath, trying to calm down.

"Tell me, something else," Jacob ordered.

"I once thought of suicide," I explained in a panic.

"What?!" Jacob shouted.

"When he left, I believed suicide was the only thing that could make me forget him, but I didn't because I couldn't leave you Jacob," I murmured, looking down.

"Bella, oh Bella, you must never leave me," Jacob ordered.

"I'm sorry Jacob," I replied.

"If I died, what would you do?" Jacob asked.

"If you died, I would kill who killed you, then die," I answered.

"Oh Bella," Jacob retorted, hugging me.

"I- Can't- Breathe," I wheezed. Jacob released me.

I took a deep breath, then with all my force, hugged him tightly, I was never going to let him go.

I will follow you anywhere, even to death.

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Bella Swan

Jacob Black

Edward Cullen