dolan imagines/smut 💜

The Secret ( grayson )

"Bye baby we're leaving now, we'll be back in 20 with dinner" Grayson said as he kissed my lips

"I'm gonna be so bored here" I said with a frown

"I know baby, I wish you could come but there could be people out" he said looking down at his hands

"I know gray." I put my head down and turned to walk away , I felt him grab my arm and swing me around

"Maddison, I promise you this will all be different soon, I'm so sorry, we just need to wait okay? And when we're in jersey we can be out whenever we want!" He placed a kiss on my forehead and I nodded, with that he closed the door behind him and I went to the living room and sat on the couch, I turned the TV on and started going through my social medias.

I guess I should probably explain myself right about now for anyone who might be confused, my name is maddison, I'm 17, and I'm an up and coming artist, me and Grayson met on the TRL set a few months ago, we were on the same episode, I was there to perform my new song, and ended up having to help out with their segment, we just clicked, after the episode so many of his and his brothers fans were controversial about us, we never showed any signs of interest on social media, so many of them were shipping us but then there's the part of the fandom that can't stand the thought of either him or Ethan in a relationship, me and Grayson have been dating for a few months now, obviously we haven't said a word to anybody except our families, it's stressful sometimes but Grayson is the best thing that's happened to me, I wouldn't trade him for the world, tomorrow Ethan, Grayson and I are flying out to New Jersey, so I can meet his family, I live in LA so they've been staying here as well, I'm so nervous but still excited.

as I was going through social media I decided to look at my mentions on twitter, so it's been a few months since us being on TRL for the first time together, but still fans are making edits of us together, I love looking at them, their fandom is so talented and so amazing, most of them are so sweet and accepting, I pressed another mention and saw it was a thread, I scrolled through to find that it was full of the negative side of things, the most disgusting and belittling comments I've ever read, I saw some very hurtful photos and edits that I wish I could erase from my mind, but still I couldn't stop scrolling, I felt my stomach turn, I felt so sick and my eyes were burning, I was so numb I couldn't even feel the tears rolling down my face any longer.

I heard the door swing open to see Ethan and Grayson walk in laughing, I quickly wiped my tears and looked back down at my phone, contemplating whether to show them or not

"Babe look we got your favourite" Grayson said as they put the bags on the kitchen counter behind me

"Thankyou" I said softly trying not to let my voice crack, I hated people seeing me cry, or knowing I was crying, it made me feel weak

Ethan sat on the big chair next to the couch and Grayson sat next to me, handing me my food, I look down and stare at it, I couldn't even think of eating right now.

"Babe, why aren't you eating you said you were starving before we left?" Grayson said as we shoved a fork full of food in his mouth, I felt my eyes start to burn again, no, I can't, I can't cry right now. I could feel the tears coming. I stood up and put my food on the coffee table in front of me

"I'm not hungry anymore, I'll be back in a minute" I said with my head down rushing upstairs

Grayson's POV

She shot up and walked down the hall to my room, I looked at Ethan and shrugged, I went back to eating my food but soon looked up at Ethan, he was being so quiet

"E?" I asked in a concerned voice as he stared blankly at.. Maddison's phone?

"She dropped her phone, look at what she was reading." He said with a choppy voice, I furrowed my eyebrows and grabbed the phone from his hands, I scrolled down on a twitter thread, I felt my heart sink, there's no way that these people, who are suppose to support me are saying things like this, me and Ethan only spread love and positivity, I was so sure I would soon be able to share my love for maddison with them all, but now I understand it might be impossible. I felt a tear roll down my face