Faked Smile (A True Story)

Faked Smile

Learning to love,
As love is learning me,
locked in chains... Afraid to see,
Maybe this is a fear...or maybe I just can't be free,
I can't sleep... My heart won't let my eyes close,
When will I ever get true sleep? Nobody knows...

Scars on my arm.. From the cuts I done,
I'm not wanting attention... This isn't for fun,
My mother is scared...
My sisters are crying,
When they ask if I'm ok... I just keep on lieing,

I hold this smile... It's to hide my pain and fear,
I don't care who it is... It's for the people who stand near,
I look like an ordinary girl with so much to say, To be honest with you... I'm just pushing everyone away,

I scream... Nobody hears,
I cry... Nobody sees the tears,
I hide... Nobody seems to know,
When somebody finally realizes... I already let it go,

I feel lonely while being held... Just knowing the person will eventually let me go,
I feel abused without being touched... Just nobody seems to know,

Don't worry about it... Don't worry about me, You'll forget about it...
Just you wait and see...