Not in a million years -Jihope [COMPLETED]

Chapter 12

Jimin

"You're the one always on my mind, Jimin.. Nobody else. Not even my parents. I'm always thinking about you Jimin, and I can't stop. Just about 30 minutes ago, sat around that table, my mind, it was crazy about you. I was dreaming, about you. And in the toilets? When I was throwing up. All I could think about was you, even though you were right there with me. Jimin.. You would never understand. It's not simple, it's not something I can push to the back of my head, because when I do that, another thought of you springs its way forward, taking over my mind. Jimin..."

I couldn't help but feel, different. Hoseok.. Was always.. Thinking about me..? I felt soft, I felt.. Somewhat happy?

Feelings..

Hoseok released a little laugh, a nervous or scared laugh.

"Im crazily mad about you Jimin, I have been, for a while. But i've never said anything untill now, because it was too much."

I don't know what the feeling was growing inside of me, but it made me feel extremely happy.

"Hoseo-"

"I just.... I.. I dont even know how to explain it.. It's the best feeling in the world, and also the worst... A whole lot of the time I just want to walk up to you and hug you, I want to stand by you. I want to love you... But then.. I realise, you'd never like me back, you've never been out with a guy, so me liking you is just another disappointment because it's never going to happen.. You're never going to love me the same way that I love you. Jimin... I love you, not just a tiny bit... I love you so much... That it hurts. It kills me, because I can't do anything about it.. My heart? It's hurting now, the realisation and sadness taking over my body... Because i'll always love you... But you'll never love me..."

Everything Hoseok was saying, it was... so powerful.... I hate the fact he feels that way... That I don't love him back.... It makes me sad.

"Hos-"

"It's like... I want to be with you so bad... That it physically hurts, knowing that I can't.."

I felt warm tears trickle down my face, he was keeping all of these emotions hidden away for so long... And it was hurting him... I feel so bad.

"See! That look! You probably think I'm disgusting, how would you, ever be with me... Thats probably what you're thinking, right?"

The tears streamed out of my eyes faster. Sadness was swelling up inside of me.

"Hoseok!"

He stopped, but his breathing was still heavy.

"Hoseok.. You should have told me how you felt..."

I slowly moved towards him, tears still forming, and I enclosed him in a tight hug, I wanted to protect him so much right now, he seemed so devastated.

"..You.. Never know... Untill you try...?"

"What does that mean...?"

"Hoseok.... I'm glad to know that you like me...."

"But?"

The corners of my mouth tilted upwards, forming a smile.

"But, I don't know if my heart is big enough to contain so much love..theres so much.... Where do I put it all? I'll need a bigger heart to keep all of that love contained..."

The atmosphere was different, it felt so much happier, I felt happier.

"You're such a tease...."

I smiled again, at Hoseok, then I leaned my head against his chest, he was so.. Warm.. And so cuddly, and comforting. I loved it.. I also realised, that I loved him too. For once my life felt complete, it's as if Hoseok enlightened me about my true feelings for him, because they felt as real as real could be. Even if i've never loved anyone before, I'm sure this is exactly what love felt like.

"Jimin... You look like a little child that's sleeping in their parents arms... Its so cute..."

I felt my cheeks heat up, and I lightly clutched onto a part of Hoseok's t-shirt, only peeking up at him, showing just my eyes, the rest of my face hidden, to hide my cheeks. Hoseok lets out by far the cutest laugh i've ever heard in my life.

"So cute!!~ Ahh~... Jiminie.... Oh my god.. My heart... My heart is ahh... It's being overun by your cuteness.."

I looked down, my whole face was red. I'm not cute.. Im a man, I'm manly..

Hoseok lifted up my face and squished my cheeks.

"Awwww~! Jiminie!~~ are you blushing???~"

I shook my head repeatedly.

"N-no.... I-I... I'm not... W-w..w-what... Makes.. Y-you th-think t-that..?"

Hoseok pulls a heart smile and lifts me into the air, hugging me.

"Aw... You change so much... Earlier you were really manly, and now... Your just.. a cute little mochi..."

I blushed even more and pouted

"Im not cute..."

"Yes you are!"

"I don't think that..."

"Well I do.."

Hoseok smiled and put me down, he then held my hands again.

"Jimin... "

"..yeah?"

"..do.. You.. Like me?"

I pulled a shocked face for a few seconds, then I immediately switched to a normal face.

"..well.."

I nodded slightly.

"..I do... Hoseok.."

I looked up at Hoseok, his eyes were bright, showing happiness, it was a nice sight to see, better than him looking sad and hurt. He grabbed me with both his arms, one going around my waist, the other around my head and he tightly hugged me again.

"Im so glad... Jimin... You have no idea how long i've wanted to hear those words escape from your mouth...."

I nodded slightly.

"Do.. You want to go back to the table....?"

Hoseok nodded.

"Sure, lets go."

{Buckle up people cause I'm gonna be posting a lot today incase I can't post next week! Hope you enjoy~}