Lust vs. Love

Antonio's End

She woke up to her phone going off. Shoot she had fallen asleep and her mom was about to have a fit. She rolled over forgetting about the pain down there...but suddenly remembered when she tried to swing out of bed. How was this going to work? She had to drive home. She was scared. She sat on the edge of the bed and cried. Just when she was about to get up and head to the bathroom the door opened. He stood there with Starbucks and this look in his eye. "I am so sorry. Are you upset? My boy is going to follow us to your house and I will drive your car. Do you think we should go to the hospital? How do you feel? Please say something," he said looking at her with a look of concern. She said, "I feel like...like...a truck has run me over. I feel scared. It hurts so bad. Do you have a mirror? My mom is going to kill me," she said as the tears began to flow again. He handed her a mirror and she lay on the bed to look. It looked awful...she vowed to never have sex again.

As she sat on the commode her legs began to shake. It burned so badly. She sat there and cried and asked God to forgive her. When she was done, she sat there. He looked at her and could tell that he was going to have to assist. So, he got out one of his shirts and slipped it on her. He put on her shoes and carried her to the car. He put her in his truck because he wanted her to be able to lie out. He had his boy drive her car and they hit the road. His truck had a smooth ride even with the crazy driving he was doing. He got her home in 30mins.

Now here came the embarrassing part. When they pulled in the driveway he went up and rang the doorbell. No answer. She told him he would have to use her key to go in and then yell for her mom. You got this...he told himself as he unlocked the door. As he opened the door and Ayo came running to the door...mommy. When he saw, it wasn't her he started jumping up and down. "Miss Brown, Miss Brown, hi my name is Tony...I have your daughter," he said nervous but strong. She came out the room, "what's wrong with my baby? How do you know her? What happened to her? Who are you?" The friend came running in, "she blacked out. We are going to have to take her to the hospital. Take her mom and I'll bring Ayo." Her mom stood there confused. Tony asked her to put on some clothes so he could get Cand'e to the hospital. Her mom looking at him shocked, "said one minute." She pointed his friend to the back room so he could get Ayo ready. Tony went out to the truck...she was out cold. He couldn't believe this. He felt a tear coming down from his eye and gave himself a quick talk to get his self together. Right then her mom appeared and got in the truck. She looked at him. "What happened to my daughter and who are you?" He looked at her put his head down and asked if she could tell him where they were going b4 he began. He started from the beginning. She looked at him because she knew about the things from the beginning but didn't know he was still around because she hadn't heard anything about him. But shoot...she didn't talk to her daughter about her life. It didn't surprise her that she didn't know he was still in the picture. She couldn't believe what she was hearing. But one thing was for sure...with all that was going on. She knew this man cared for her daughter and that she was in safe hands. They pulled up and he ran in. Everything happened so fast.

When her eyes opened, she was surrounded by noises. Once her vision cleared she looked up and saw Tony staring at her, "hi baby, how you feel?" "I'm ok, what happened? Where am I?" she said trying to put things together. She slowly began to remember what happened. "I got home and then...what happened Tony? Am I ok? Where is Ayo? Speak to me Tony," she said confused. He told her that she had been in the hospital a couple of days and that Ayo was at school. He told her that he hasn't left her side except to tend to Ayo. He told her that he was so sorry. That he didn't know how strong he was. He said he talked to her mom for a while and that he was going to take her and Ayo with him back to Cincinnati for her to get better. Said her mom couldn't take off right now and that he had plenty of days and could work from home if needed. Said his friend would go get her mom anytime she wanted to come. Said he was so sorry and that he would spend the rest of his days making it right. She looked at him confused.

The doctor came in and told her she could go home. Said he would give her some pain meds. Said that she needs to be supervised and that she would need to keep the tube in for a few more weeks. He also told her that it would be a few months before she could have sex again and that she would not be able to have children. She looked at the doctor stunned and then looked at Tony. Tears began to roll down her eyes and she couldn't find the words to say. Just then the door opened and her mom came in. She hugged her so tight, "how do you feel? Tony is going to take care of you. He is a good man. He feels bad for what has happened. He has guaranteed me he will spend the rest of his life making this up to us. He's a good one baby. Let him help." She looked at her. She knew her mother. All she could think was he must've told her about his money, because she always wanted her with somebody who could take care of her financially and Tony could.

The nurse came in with the discharge papers, her prescriptions, and instructions. She was pleasant. Right when she was getting ready to be wheeled out Mo came in with a bouquet of lily's. "I know your mom said Cincinnati was taking care of you. But I am coming down for a few days to make sure he is handling his business. I mean because I know you and if you saw those eyebrows or that head you would have a fit," she said laughing. For the first time in what seemed like forever she laughed.

As she got settled in his beautiful home she just smiled. She couldn't believe how far they had come. This was the man who changed phones all the time and would go ghost if she asked him anything personal...to now wanting to spend the rest of his life with her. She was ready for the challenge but she was also nervous. She knew there were things he needed that she couldn't give him. She knew he needed a woman that had a little hood in her that had some edge. So she only could wonder how long it would last before he got bored.

As she sat there with tears beginning to run down her eyes MO walked in, "What's wrong? Do you need something? Are you in pain?" "I'm good doll...what's up," not wanting to tell MO what was going through her head. No matter how she tried to hide it Mo knew something was wrong. But because she knew her friend she didn't want to press it. Instead she just focused on the matter at hand.

As she laid there next to him sleeping...she knew he loved her. But she couldn't let it go that she felt that eventually she would lose him. She cried and prayed and asked God why did she always sabotage herself. She wanted to know what it was from her past that made her think that good wasn't good. He moved and saw she was awake, "baby what's wrong, why are you not sleeping? Are you crying? Babe...what's going on? Are you in pain? Do you need something?" She looked at him, "I love you. I just hope that I am enough for you. I am so in love with you. You have stolen my heart with your crazy self." She smiled and stroked his head. He moved in closer to her and began to kiss her. She moaned because it had been awhile since she felt his touch. He took his tongue and did things to her yammies that she had never felt. He massaged her stomach and she could tell that he yearned for her. "I love you. I am so sorry baby; I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you. I got beside myself. Your love is so sweet. Teach me how to be gentle with you. Teach me how to love you." He said as he rubbed her stomach. She wanted him so bad...but the doctor said NO. And she had promised God that she would not.

She pushed him back, kissed down his torso and took him in. He bucked and began to moan. She wanted to show him how much he meant to her in a way that only the two of them could appreciate. She was proud because she believed she had mastered giving him Aussie kisses and knew what it took to make him climax. When he was getting ready to go; he would grab her head and yell her name. When he was done, she went to the restroom to get a warm rag to clean off what didn't go in her mouth. She loved this man and everything about him. He walked up behind her, "I can't wait until I can return the favor. Thank you, baby, you know what to do and how to do it. I am one lucky man." "Nah...you a boss baby. And don't you forget." She said as she began stroking and wiping him down. You going to start something. You better stop. She smiled looked at him and sashayed out the bathroom.

As he climbed into the bed, he pulled her in, looked at her and smiled. When she closed her eyes, she promised herself she would not focus on what she couldn't give him. But would focus on making her happily ever after last forever.

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