I really want to eat
My stomach is growling
But every time I do
I have a mental breakdown
I have the urge to throw everything up
Even if it's a single almond
My mind thinks
Fat
Fat
Fat
And then I go
And I eat the most unhealthy things
Ice cream
Chips
Pizza
Donuts
And I want to throw everything up
What is wrong with me
And I can feel myself
Gain ten pounds
For every bite
As all the progress I've made
Trying to become skinnier
Go down the drain
And I hate myself
What is wrong with me
And then I try to not eat
Because even vegetable are
Too many calories
This stupid cycle
I just need to be skinny
Lose all of this fat
Why can't I be skinny
And then my stomach growls
And I eat a little bit
And it hurts
I want to throw everything up
Why don't I
Get rid of all the calories
Because I hate throwing up
Maybe one day I'll get over it
And I can be skinny
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Maybe Not That Fine
PoetryIt's funny, how people always ask how you are doing, then are surprised when we are not. Why is that? Why do we always have to be okay? I have no plan for what to write so we will see what happens. I hope you enjoy them. Everything here is mine unle...
