tw: brief mentions of abuse, depression, bad mentality
(someone please make me feel valid)
so like i was abused by my brother for a long time (he would like, beat me up and insult me and stuff) and when i finally told my mom about my depression ( TWO F-CkinG YEARS) we went to a group therapy session. and basically, i exploded at my brother. And my mom got upset?!? after the end of the session??? and like, when i said that i didn't, couldn't, forgive him and that he made my life hell and that i didn't want him to touch me, she guilt tripped me (something she said she wouldn't do anymore) into hugging him?!? and like made me really uncomfortable but like !?!!? (and admission on my part, i'm kinda a bi+ch to him, most of the time.) so my mom, started to like, yell at me today, about how i needed to move on, and that i didn't need to like him, but i was required to love him because he is my younger brother and he looked up to me and all that crap, so, me being me, i fled upstairs. and sat and cried in the bathroom. and now i'm here. because i have no one else to rant to (beside my older sister, but then she'd tell mom and oh god no) so uh, sorry to waste your time or whatever
