Give me a reason (a sherlock fanfiction)

Hospital

Chapter 17

Johns pov

Wow. This is just so quiet. I can't even think about how loud and obnoxious sherlock would be if we were home right now. I think a break is what I need. And this is a nice hotel. Maybe I'll go for a sauna. I was just about to leave my room when my phone went off.

"Damn it! Way to reck the mood... Mrs. Hudson?" Why was she calling me. I guess I'll answer.

"Hello Mrs Hudson"

"..Oh John.." Mrs Hudson managed between her tears.

"Mrs Hudson what's wrong?"

"It's sherlock. He tried to kill himself. " more tears " he's... At... The hospital"

"Okay mrs Hudson.. I'm on my way. " and with that, I ran out the door"

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Sherlocks pov

I've always hated the hospital. So clean, white and...artificial. And trust me, waking up here was no pleasant surprise. It took the nurses a while to pump more drugs into me to get me to calm down.

I was supposed to be dead. Not lying here. No one was supposed to find me. With out John I'm as good as dead anyways. I would rather study space then be alive, if that makes my point. Footsteps. I guess I should pretend to be asleep still. The footsteps came in my room. Grreeaatt.

"Sherlock, I know your not asleep" I think my heart stopped. That voice, so familiar, so conniving, so... Persuading.

"It's okay Sherly, I'm here now" and with that, unknown drugs started pumping into my system. My own body is betraying me, not letting me see or touch who is there. Then my body started to spasm

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Johns pov

I walked into the hospital to find a flailing Sherlock gasping for air. I rushed over and began to calm him down.

"Shh, it's okay sherlock. I'm here. Calm down" and slowly sherlock started to relax.

"John.."

"No sherlock, don't talk. Just breathe."
After he completely calmed down he said the words I never thought I would hear.

"Thank you john. You saved my life."

"Wha.."

"Someone came in an injected me with a drug that started making my heart race and my breaths shorten. If you weren't here, I would be dead" dammit John, don't cry. Not now.

"But sherlock... It's because of me your here" here come the water works.

"If I hadn't been such an inconsiderate asshole maybe neither of us would be here."

"John, it's fine. I got what I deserved. But now I'm really tired so if you don't " and he yawned. Cute. " I'm going back to sleep."

I'm gonna take a shot in the dark and hope he still loves me.." Okay love" and I pecked him in the cheek.

"I love you John" and with that he was asleep.

I guess I'll get some coffee. I walked into the small café area and got my drink. I was going back to sherlock when I thought I saw him. But when I looked back he was gone. Must have been the light. Sherlock here I come!