GxxodBas- Collection (Godt and Bas)

Part C

(Bas POV)

I don't know for how long I've been staring at the wall infront of me. A lot of things had happened the past few months and neither one of them is good.

Except for those moments that I'm with them, that I'm with HIM.

At first I thought that I was just admiring him as an older brother because he was too kind and gentle-far from the image he had established infront of other people. I tried to suppress the feeling but the more I deny it, the stronger it gets.

I thought I was the only one who feels that way so I was surprised when he told me that he felt the same way, that he loves me more than I'll ever know.

/I love you too my little bub, shiyaaa Is this how Phana felt when he saw wayo?/

Sometimes I was thinking if I was the reason why he and his long time girlfriend broke up, but he tells me otherwise, that the only mistake that I committed was to make him fall for me. 

I laughed at the thought. He is funny whenever we are alone but stone cold infront of other people- I wish he could show the real him. In that way people would know the real Itthipat Thanit.

I wipe the tears in my eyes as I browse our photos from my phone. How I miss seeing his smiley face, his witty comments, his hugs and kisses

I missed him, but why did I let him go?

I let him go because I don't want him to be burdened of this relationship, I let him go because I know what he has to go through every day, I have to let him go Because this is the only thing I know that will save him--but if I will be asked a thousand times, I will not let him go.

How can you let go of someone who completes you?

"Nong bas, dinner is ready you need to eat." P'Oh uttered while he knock on my door. I don't want him to see me in this state for he doesn't know anything.

"I'm not hungry P~ I'm tired" I replied as I leaned on my bed

I can hear his footstep walking away from my door as I continued crying the tears out. I remembered that I have a photoshoot tomorrow, who cares my heart is hurting.

My phone started beeping, a notification from line appeared on my screen

LINE: My ❤

My hands started to tremble as I stared at the notification on my screen.

/Sorry but I missed you my bas/

I cried harder than I thought when I read his message. How can he still miss me after what I did to him, how can he still care?

my door suddenly opened surprising me as I covered my face away from the sudden intruder.

"Until when will you keep on crying Nong?" P'Kimmon's voice echoed at the background

"why are you still here P? I thought P'sprite is waiting for you?" I ask as I wipe my tears

"P'Oh told me to check on you because you refused to eat dinner and the food is really delicious. He find it weird" P'Kimmon replied

"P~ I just want to be alone. I don't think I'm in the right mind to talk to anyone right now." I answered

P'Kimmon sit beside me on the floor as he shake his head "Shiyaaa Nong~~
as If I don't know what's running through your head right now. if you want him go for it!" he stated

"P~~ its not easy! I thought it would be easy but its not." I answered

"Who told you that love is easy? if its that easy then love adviser like me wouldn't exist!" P'Kimmon uttered trying to cheer me up

I shake my head as I hug my knees and hide my face away from him.

"Look at what that tall guy told me before leaving earlier: P'Kim please take care of Nong Bas for me, I don't want to see him cry anymore." P'Kimmon stated

I look up as I stared at P'Kim's face, he looks like he is telling me the real thing
"when did he tell you that?" I asks

"Airport before we left earlier." P'Kim answered

"So do you want me to tell him that hey Godt, he is still crying, what to do?" P'Kim asks while holding his other phone

I grab his phone and shake my head "No, just let it be." I replied

"Bas, you need to talk things out, if not it will just hurt the both of you. you'll see him tomorrow, be at your best." P'Kim stated before closing the door

He what..

I will see him tomorrow?

Why? I have not seen that in my schedule...

Why??

LINE GROUP CHAT: Solar Boys

P'Oh: Nong bas, since you don't like the dinner for tonight make sure to sleep early, photoshoot with Godt at 8am

Tee: Woah, Nong Bas is not eating dinner?? for real P'Oh?

Tae: Stop teasing Khun ying~

Copter: #Therealfatkidisonadiet

Kimmon: Nah~~ he's just inlove

August: with whom??

Bas: 😡😡😡😡 goodnight P's!

Janean: sleep early nongs~

MY GODT!!!! Why do we need to have a photoshoot tomorrow just when I was crying too hard. 😭😭😭😭

What if I look ugly?
What if he doesn't like me anymore?
What if???

ahhhhhh!!! why am I in love with a Godt?