A collection of thoughts

why i am not enough.

Why am I not good enough? Is it because of how i look. Is it because I don't fit your mold. Was it because when i finally showed you there is more to life, you got scared. How about when you finally started to fall hard, the ones who you called friend talked you out of it. Or maybe was it me?
Was it because of the love that i gave you. A place that you could share you feelings and know you wouldn't be judged. How about when i would change my own personality just to make sure i was pleasing you. The time i invested in you. So why am i not good enough? I waisted countless hours coming up with the correct things to say. I made time for you. I loved you more then I loved myself. All for nothing. And now you are realizing that i was a mistake. That I was the problem. That I was the one holding you back. I apologized for being myself. I even apologize for the actions of my friends. And yet after all the time and effort I was not good enough.