My Prince of Ardenia

Chapter 4

(A/N: ^ A picture of Jeniffer and Clark's kiss.)

"I wanted to apologize for my gestures."

"No need for an apology, Clark. I liked it."

Lumapit ako sakanya.

I kissed him..

And he kissed me back. His kiss suddenly went lower to my neck and a moan escaped my mouth.

"Clark.. I"

His hands were all over me. 

I tugged the back of his hair to encourage him more.

He kissed me harder on the neck.

The sensations were overwhelming. I've never felt so alive. I felt every touch of his lips, his hands, his hair. Everything was so perfect.

"Clark, please.."

"Please what?" He chuckled.

"Please don't stop."

Another moan escaped my mouth.

And then suddenly, my stomach hurt like hell, but i ignored it and felt Clark's hand under my shirt.

I got chills all over my body.

"Clark, ouch."

"huh? Did I do something wrong" he stopped.

Napahiga ako sa grass and I started crying.

"Ouchhh. Ang sakit!" 

Hinawakan ko yung tyan ko.

"Jen, are you okay? Ano nangyayari? Ano nararamdaman mo?"

Nararamdaman kong nagsisimula na magpanic si Clark.

"Clark, ang sakit. Ang sakit sakit." Patuloy na dumadaloy ang luha ko.

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Nagising ako sa tunog ng beep ng heart monitor sa hospital.

"Jen, buti naman nagising ka na." Lumapit sa akin si Kaitlyn.

Yinakap ko siya.

"Ayun si Clark." Tinuro niya si Clark na natutulog sa sofa. "Pagod na yan, kagabi pa yan hindi natutulog kakabantay sayo. Okay ka na?"

"Yes" I put on a tired smile.

Pumasok yung doctor sa kwarto.

"Hello Ms. Jennifer Howardson, how are you feeling?"

"I'm feeling fine."

"Well, I have news to you. Good and bad"

"Okay. Give it to me, kakayanin ko."

"Okay, the good news is: The chemo is working but the bad news is: there's another tumor forming in your lungs."

I cried and cried and cried but wala na akong magagawa. Welcome to my life.

Lumabas na yung doctor at yinakap agad ako ni Kaitlyn.

"You can totally surpass this. Ikaw pa ba, diba?"

Napatingin kami ni Kait dahil nagising na si Clark.

"Jen, you're awake!!" Yinakap niya agad ako.

"What happened? Pumunta na ba yung doctor?"

"Yes." Sagot ni Kaitlyn "Kakaalis niya palang."

"Ohh. Well, ano daw?"

"Cl---"

"Food poisoning daw.." Pinutol ko si Kait. "Yung pizza mo kasi eh" I laughed.

"Uyyy, galing yun sa mamahaling restaurant." He also laughed. "I hope you're feeling better na."

"I am"

He kissed me on my forehead.

I was discharged the next day.

The months passed by and I can say that my relationship with Clark bloomed.

We were officially a couple. Sinusundo niya ako pag uwian ko sa klase. He's the sweetest, I couldn't ask for more. I love him so much.

But I'm lying to him, pumupunta ako sa hospital every month for my chemo and check up pero hindi niya alam. He just thinks na I'm getting really tired every end of the month. 

I don't know how to tell him kasi. I don't want to hurt his feelings.

-------- After 1 year -------

"Jen, seryoso, you need to tell him."

"But why, Kaitlyn? Hindi ba pwedeng secret nalang natin to forever? Ayoko siyang saktan!"

"JEN!!!! DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF?! YOU'RE HURTING HIM MORE BY KEEPING IT A SECRET FROM HIM! TELL HIM YOU HAVE CANCER!!!!"

"No, i can't. I don't want to lose him."

"Trust me, mas lalo siyang mawawala kung tataguin mo sakanya. Tell him NOW! and don't let this day pass without telling him! Trust me on this one, Jen"

After that heated argument with my best friend. I have decided.

Pupunta naman ako kila Clark ngayon, so, I'm going to tell him.

------- At Clark's house ------               

I went inside his house, my key kasi ako.

"Surprise!" Sigaw ng friends and families namin.

What? Anong meron. I saw Clark coming in from the kitchen at may hawak siya na banner na nakalagay "Happy 1st anniversary, baby!"

Anniversary? Nakalimutan ko!!!! OMG!!!!

He kissed me and my tears flowed. How am I supposed to tell him if he's like this? Pwede bang ipagbukas nalang?

Naalala ko yung sinabi ni Kaitlyn *Trust me, mas lalo siyang mawawala kung tataguin mo sakanya. Tell him NOW! and don't let this day pass without telling him! Trust me on this one, Jen*

We socialized and i really decided kung sasabihin ko ba or hindi and I decided again, na sasabihin ko after the party.

------- After the party ------

Kaming dalawa nalang naiwan.

"Ummm Clark." Tinapik ko siya sa shoulder.

"Hey baby." He lifted me and planted a kiss on my cheek.

"May... May kailangan akong sabihin sayo."

"Ano yun?"

Umiiyak na ako.

"Jen, you know you can tell me anything, right?" Pinahiran niya yung luha ko.

"Clark.."

"Hmmm?" He asked slowly.

"I..." I panicked.

Hindi ko talaga kayang sabihin sakanya. What if ayawan niya ko dahil nagsinungaling ako sakanya? It would hurt much more.

"I...I'm breaking up with you." 

Mas masasaktan siya kung he knew that I only have a few years left before I die.