I know it's all my fault. But was it so wrong to protect myself from further hurting? Ang sakit na kasi. Ayoko ng masaktan. Gusto ko na lang umiwas.
May mali ba 'dun?
I didn't want to feel pain anymore. I was afraid to get hurt so bad na mag iiwan ng marka na dadalahin ko buong buhay.
I didn't want to ruin love... kahit na sobra sobra yung sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon, I knew that I would fall in love again. At ayokong masaktan ng mas sobra pa that I wouldn't be able to give anything anymore.
So I wanted to protect myself.
I want to be okay again. So bad. But I can't just force myself to be okay. And I didn't know if I had enough strength to pretend that everything's alright.
That I was fine. Because I wasn't.
