Why is everything I do bad?
Why can't I even talk to my own family?
Why can't I try to help?
Why can't I do anything?
You always wonder
'Why can't she do anything?'
The reason is
You've depleted me of my self worth
I can't even remember the last time I liked myself
I can't remember doing something without worrying if I'm pleasing you or not
I don't do much for myself anymore
Its mostly for you
Even the things I do for myself are for you so...
Nothing I do is just for me
I just want to be normal
Have a normal family
Not be a freak
Not be a outcast
Actually have friends who don't shut me out
Have a fucking good life
Not want to die in a daily basis
Not get scared of people finding out about the real me
...
