Stars eternal without the night

Bonus chapter #1

"What do I do? What do I do? Mor help me!" I yell frantically.

She of course can't because she's laughing her butt off on the ground. She calms down enough though to give me a reply.

"Feyre, just tell him straight up. He'll be estatic" she says.

"I know! But it's barely been two years since he came back and when Gillian was born, how am I supposed to tell him?".

"Why don't you try at the party later on for New Years?" she suggests.

I sigh and try to muster some courage that I don't feel.

"Okay".

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The House of Wind was full of the citizens of Velaris celebrating the coming of a new year. They were quite casual in the dress code but full out when it came to enjoying this night.

"I didn't think I would miss this if I ever left, but I found myself hoping to enjoy these small moments at least once more".

I turn around to see Rhysand looking at the celebrations with a far off look in his starlight eyes. I smile sadly at him and hold his cheek to bring his eyes to mine, burning with love and passion.

"I'm not going to tell you to forget it or to get over it, but you can't let it bring you down from now on". I sweep my arms around us to show all our friends and family enjoying themselves.

"Everyone here is here for you and we all love you" I tell him.

"I doubt Nesta would agree with you" he jokingly says.

I chuckle a bit at him, silently agreeing. Nesta has kept on being her icey self but I think since Gillian was born she's been a bit more soft on the edges.

Especially when her and Cassian finally mated. Let me tell you Nesta was practically an angel compared to the rude, snarky and overprotective Cassian during the few weeks after. It took Azriel, calm controlled Azriel growling at him in pure annoyance with his behavior to bring Cassian to his senses. Rhys had fun that week teasing them both until he earned a punch to the face. We all know who did it.

"This reminds me of Starfall, just without the baby and extended family, but happy memories nonetheless" Rhys remarks.

"You know what would really make it like Starfall" I say.

"What? I don't think you can fall for me all over again, you'll hurt yourself darling" he says cockily.

I smack his arm then point up and out.

"I was going to say dancing on the balcony but I don't think I can let that comment slide" I say.

In seconds he swoops me up and flys out to the exact balcony we were on at Starfall. I rest my arms on his neck and sway to the music. Rhys grabs my hips and does the same.

But it's all ruined when Rhys starts sniffing me aggressively. I'm first shocked at his actions but realize what he's so worked up about.

"Feyre, why do you smell different?" he asks huskily.

I don't say anything and he groans at me.

"Tell me please, you smell sooo good right now for some reason. Whatever perfume your using I'm going to buy a thousand vials of it so you can wear for the rest of our lives" he declares.

"It will only be available for 9 months" I tell him. The look on his face is determined and I can tell he would buy a whole shop of this scent if he could. I laugh at him for it and fell a little reasured that he'll take my news well.

Here goes.

"Rhys, I smell like this because I'm, uhm,....I'm pregnant" I say hesitantly.

Rhysand stands there for a full minute with a blank face and suddenly I regret telling him at all. 

But then I'm pulled into a bear huge, being swung around in the limited space the balcony offers.

"I'm going to be a father, we're going to have a baby" he says happily laying his forehead on mine. "I'm actually going to be there this time" he whispers.

I laugh in joy and Rhysand just gives me an adoring look. He kisses me softly, expressing how happy he is and how much he loves me. I smile at him.

"Come on, let's go tell Gil".

My baby boy's reaction was adorable with how happy he is on becoming an older brother. From where I'm squatting at his level he enegeticly pats my lap in excitement.

"Mama mama, I big brother for boy or girl?" he asks me in his cute toddler speech.

I giggle a little and look up to Rhysand and the rest of our family who look as inpatient as Gillian to know.

"I don't know" I say to them, seeing all their disappointed faces at my answer. I try and hold it in a little longer, but the guilt takes a hold of me.

"One of each I guess" I almost sing to them. And lets just say someone fainted when I announced my twin baby status. Let's just say Rhysand might really end up killing Cassian this time for falling on him.

The smiles though on my boys' faces will forever be in my memories the best way to start my year off. With family, friends, happiness and love.