'I feel sad.
I feel lonely.
I feel dead.
Why?
Why do I feel these things?
Why do I cry myself to sleep?
Why am I like this?
Before, I was a happy, jolly, small and loud cookie but now...
I feel.. depressed.
I feel like no one needs me.
I feel like I don't belong in this world.
I have suicidal thoughts.
I can't stop them.
Someone save me before I get pushed into this bottomless pit full of nothing but depression and suicidal thoughts.
When will it stop?
Please save me.
Why am I like this?
I feel like I have no more feelings.
Why can't I see?
Someone please open my eyes.
Why is it cold?
Someone please warm me up.
BTS said to love myself yet, here I am, thinking whether to live or die.
Committing suicide is a sin.
You're not appreciating what God gave to you.
I am but, I feel like nobody needs me.
I should just walk out in night, waiting for a rapist or a serial killer to kill me in a dark alley.
Since committing suicide is a sin, why can't I just do that?
But still, I can't do that.
Why?
I'm afraid.
I'm afraid I might go to hell by doing that.
I'm afraid I might go to hell because of my sins.
I don't need a therapist.
What I need is someone to UNDERSTAND what I'm going through.
What I need is someone to be there for me.
What I need is... a friend.
A understanding friend.
A loving yet kind friend.
A person who won't betray me.
But... I don't have any of those.
I should just stay in my cover wherever I go.
I should just keep a fake smile so that no one worries about me.
I should just...
D.I.E' - Minnie Pop.
I wrote this by heart.
I'm writing a new fanfic which I'll be focusing on than all my other ones.
I'll just finish one fanfic at a time and do another one when it's finished.
I'm focusing more on this fanfic just to show you what I feel and express my feelings- sadness through writing a character that's not real.
The person that's going to save her/me is a BTS member because I know that no one will be there for me. So, I'm just going to fantasise about that and hold back the rest of the fanfics.
Thank you for taking your time in reading this, even though I know you aren't.
P.S - I'm going to write more of my depression at the start of the chapters so pay close attention to the text.
JE LEEST
catch me before I fall || k.th
Fanfiction"..Save me.." *** In which a girl who has been depressed for nearly all her life. When she was younger, she was a joyful little cookie but now, she has gone cold, empty and depressed. The reason? Her dad died trying to save her. Her mother thought s...
