The Walls She Built

Prologue

"Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high"

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Relationships, feelings, and love, it is all just bullshit. None of it seems real. I have never been in love nor do I think I will ever be in love. I do not understand the concept of love. How do two random people in this world end up finding the "love-of-their-lives" in a matter of years. I mean there are millions of people on this Earth and two people are magically perfect for each other. Fate must really be working in their favor. 

All the shit you read about and see on television is just a whole set up. It is not real, it can't be. It doesn't help that everyone and their mothers are all on a timeline. "Marry by 20, kids by 30, happily every after by 80". This just sets unreal expectations. Personally I am not like this at all, I don't care if I get married when I am 18 or 80. As for kids, who would want to bring Innocent people into this fucked up world.  

I do not think love is real. It is just an infatuation. I believe people just settle in relationships believing they will not find anybody better. I have accepted the hard truth that I am going to die alone and I embrace it. I am a bitch and yes I can be a little dramatic but maybe I am just bitter.

I was not always so bitter about the whole romance thing. When I was younger I did have some hope for a beautiful future for myself. There was a time I believed in love-at-first-sight and soul mates. Now as an 18 year old girl in high school, who has never even been in a relationship, my walls are already stacked up high. For some reason I fear falling and having feelings for somebody. I refuse to let myself get hurt.

It is not that I have never had crushes, I have. I have only like five boys in my entire life. I have gotten close to them but end up getting hurt, partly being my fault. For some reason I have a talent to mess up the good things that come to me when it comes to my love life, or lack of a love life.

Little did I know this would all change when I meet a cute guy at a party.

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This is my third book on Wattpad! This is a little different than what I am used to writing but I am excited for a change.

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