Breaking the Rules [Student/Teacher Romance]

Chapter 9

"Thank you" I smile and stretch out on the floor. Will watches me and laughs,
"I have a perfectly good sofa for that" he stands up taking our empty Chinese boxes to the kitchen,
"I have a food baby" I lift my top up and rub my belly,
"As long as it's only food" Will chuckles as he walks back in and sits down,
"Well you won't give me anything to cause anything else so" I huff,
"Mia" he sighs, "you know why"
"Yes yes" I pout,
"Come on, you know it's hard for me too, it just doesn't feel right" he leans forward, elbows resting on his knees,
"It did before" I say quietly, nibbling my bottom lip. Will sighs and runs his hand over his face,
"Mia, do we have to go in to this?"
"No, sorry. I think I'm just a bit...frustrated" I feel my cheeks heat up,
"Yep. So am I" he responds bluntly. We both sit in an awkward silence for what feels like forever before I stand up in front of him,
"maybe it's time for me to go home" I fiddle with my fingers in front of me,
"Now that you won't get me to have sex tonight?" he laughs but I can hear it's mainly anger. His words cause me to step backwards, my eyebrows come down in a frown,
"uh, what?" he shakes his head and stands up from the couch,
"come on then" he grabs his keys off the side table and stands in front of the door. My feet are stuck to the ground in front of his sofa,
"Will" I close my eyes and shake my head trying to process what he implied, "I'm not leaving because we're not sleeping together. I'm leaving because I don't want to sit in an awkward silence for the next few hours"
"I don't want to argue about this Mia. You know my reasons, I thought you would respect them-"
"I do!" I cut him off, my voice raising causing him to run his hand through his hair,
"Obviously not if you keep throwing yourself at me trying to get me to break!" he snaps. I step back again, hurt,
"That's what you think about me?" Will opened his mouth but it took him a moment to find his voice,
"No.." his voice trailed off. I exhale sharply out my nose and walk to the door, "No, Mia" he reaches for my hand but I snatch it away, opening the door, "Mia" he hisses. I march down the corridor and to the elevator, thankfully it's open so I don't have to wait for it. I stand in and push the button, "Mia will you just fucking listen to me" Will steps in the elevator and stands in front of me,
"what" I snap, my eyes finally meeting his,
"I know you want more, Mia, I do too. It kills me when I have to keep saying no, but I don't have it in me to say yes. It feels wrong" he sighs, "you're my goddamn student, Mia" his voice quiet.
"I'm not trying to get you to break" I mutter, "I wouldn't do that to you. You obviously don't know me"
"Mia I'm losing my patience. There's no point making a big deal out of this, I'm simply reminding you I have my rules and I would really appreciate it if you would respect those" anger creeps in to his voice,
"I do. I'm sorry if you think I'm forcing you in to sex"
"Mia" he groans through gritted teeth, running his hand through his hair, "Do you realise how ridiculous and childish this argument sounds?"
"Well I'm sorry Will, maybe it's my age" the minute it comes out of my mouth I regret it. The elevator doors open and he shakes his head,
"call your friend" he mutters before walking to the stairwell,
"I didn't mean it like that" I run out of the elevator. The door closes behind him and I'm left standing in the lobby with fresh tears streaming down my face.

                                                                                              *****

"my class boring you, Miss Nichols?" Mrs Roberts voice makes me jump awake, my hand dropping my face. I jolt up and look at her,
"uhh, sorry, Mrs Roberts" I blush, hearing snickers around me, "I didn't get much sleep" I mumble looking down,
"if it happens again, it's detention" I nod quickly in agreement,
"What's wrong with her?" Hannah leans in close to whisper. I shrug and look down at my work, my face still bright red, "what's wrong with you?" Hannah raises her eyebrow,
"nothing" I mumble, "Didn't sleep very well"
"does this have anything to do with a certain...man?" she whispers low,
"Han, I've been dreading today. I don't want to talk about it" I sigh,
"Okay, sorry" she holds her hands up in defence. I squeeze my eyes shut at the sound of the bell. Great, it's time.
I say my goodbyes with Hannah and walk to Will's class, every step feeling like a bad idea. Our argument had been so petty, but we're both so stubborn and both said hurtful things. Fuck sake Mia just breathe. I stop walking and lean against the wall. I count to 10 in my head. Nope, bad Idea. I'm going home. I turn to march out of the building when I face plant someone's rock hard chest.
"Miss Nichols" I look up, Will.
"Uh....I....I'm sorry" I blush and look down, about to walk around him,
"I hope you're not leaving before my class has even started?" He raises an eyebrow. I see the head of the department step around Will,
"N-no, of course not" I bite the inside of my cheek and turn around, walking straight to his class without another word.

                                                                                               *****

"Miss Nichols? A word?" Will calls me back as I try and sneak out with everyone else. I grit my teeth and turn around, closing the door behind me I walk back to his desk, "can we talk?" he asks quietly, standing up,
"well I don't have much of a choice" I laugh, to which he responds with a sigh, "sure" I mumble,
"I'm sorry for what happened the other night, I'm sorry it got to that" he pushes his hands in his back pockets and glances down at the floor. I can see him thinking of what to say next so I step in,
"I'm sorry too" I nibble my bottom lip, "I'm sorry for being childish" I step towards him, "I don't want you to feel like...like I'm pressuring you into breaking your rules" my voice quiet and shaky,
"Mia" his voice a hoarse whisper, "I think we should...hold off until you finish school"
"yeah that's fine" I nod, "If you don't want us to have sex until then I understand why, I understand now" I step closer to him, his cologne making my brain relax,
"No...I" he sighs, "I mean everything. I think we should stop...everything, until you finish school" I frown and step back,
"Will...that's..months away?" I shake my head, "We can't just drop everything? I love you Will, and...and I thought you loved me too?"
"I do Mia, but what sort of relationship is this? We've been lucky not to get caught, let's not push our luck" I feel a tear drop down my face, "Mia, don't cry" he steps forward, causing me to step back,
"No, Will" I shake my head, "You can't do this and tell me not to cry" My voice cracks,
"Mia"
"No" I cry, "Just..Just don't" I rush out the room, as soon as I'm in the corridor I run. I don't care who sees me, I don't care that I'm sobbing.

                                                                                              *****

I swing open the front door and I'm greeted by Sam at the bottom of the stairs,
"Mia?" he frowns, his eyes running over my tear stained face. I try and push past him but he holds on to my shoulders, "Mia what is it?" his head moves down so he can look me in the eyes, "whats happened?"  his face is angry but his eyes are concerned,
"Get off me Sam" I cry, trying to push him out the way. He let's go and steps away, watching me run up the stairs and slam my door.  I lean against the closed door and slide down on to the floor. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and is totally disconnected from my body.  I feel like all I can do is cry, there's nothing else I can do.  I can't calm down my breathing and so this time, I just let it take over my body, I wail in to my dressing gown on the floor, feeling like I'm choking on my own breath.

                                                                                              *****