5. Acceptance

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It's been a year
Time flies, doesn't it?
I haven't seen you since 3 months ago
And it turns out
I don't miss you at all

Last i saw you, you looked the same
Neither happy
Nor sad
I guess some things never change

I like to think that I'm better off now
My mother says so
And my dad agrees
Turns out, he knew about us all along
He just wanted me to figure things out on my own

And i have
And maybe, i still have that annoying scab
Barely healed, just enough to stop the blood flow
But i like to think I'm better off now

No
I know that I'm better off now
And that's a relief
I never thought I'd feel this way
But i do now
Thank you for that

Even though what we had meant nothing to you,
It meant something to me
It was 3 years of my life, after all
Thank you

For showing me you don't care
For letting me know you weren't bothered
By my heartbreak
My tears
The sleepless nights I stayed up drunk
You didn't care

And thank you for that
Cause it made forgetting you easier
Getting over you was no trouble
And though it took me a year
I'm glad to say
I've never been better

I can move on
Without using another person as rebound
I'm proud of myself
Sometimes, i think you'd have been too

I'm way more mature than i was back then
I'm less clingy
I'm confident
I'm stronger
And I am my best self

And make no mistake
I don't want to get with you again
Thank you for that scar
But that's just what you
A scar
That has healed
And that shows me I'm strong

I don't think i ever want to go through that again
It was too toxic
Too complicated
Too broken

I want new things
Better things
Someone who will take care of me
From now on,
It's me first

It's time for me
Time for me to shine
Time for me to make my own way
Time for me to dust myself off and walk into the sunset

Who knows
Someone else might join me
Or they won't
I can take care of myself
And in the end?
That's all that matters

Goodbye.

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