why don't we imagines & preferences

"consequences" - Jonah marais

Song i wrote to: consequences by Camilla cabello

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You and Jonah had currently been together for 8 months

He was know as the good boy in others eyes but there's always a bad side and you were just the right pray that he went for

You were young, not knowing much you didn't think about the consequences a relationship would bring

You ignored all the signs and warnings

To everyone jonah seemed like the perfect gentleman but to you it was different

For the first few months it was fine, loving him was young, wild and free, it was cool and sweet

He was your safe and sound

Untill his true colours came out

"Your a stupid bitch!" He yelled at you throwing glass plates at your direction

"Im sorry i wasn't thinking!" You said quietly

You had finally gotten to see his true colours around the 4 month mark of being together

It didnt have to be something big that set him off into a rage like this

This side of jonah was only seen by you and behind closed doors

"Maybe you should start paying more attention then dumb whore!" Jonah yelled as he slammed the fromt door

You sat there crying

Loving him was all you ever wanted to do

He was a steady place to let down your defences

So you stayed all this time in hopes that you loving him could calm him down

But loving him came with consequences

Loving him is dark, dumb and cruel and cheap

You had lost so much more than your senses by being with him.

As you began to pick up all the pieces of the shattered glass on the floor you realised how much it was like picking up the broken pieces of your heart

You looked at yourself in the shattered mirrior on the wall and sighed

You were skinny, too skinny for your liking

You hadn't been eating and only thinking and overthinking caused you to be sad which meant you then didn't want to eat

You ran your hand over your body feeling the bones through your skin to the point where you could grab them

You were bruised and shattered beyond repair

You were lonely

You were bruised

You were scared

You were sad and

You were broken.

Grabbing the few belongs you had from the room you made your way back to the front door

Stopping near the table you decided to leave a note

'Dear Jonah
Loving you was young, and wild, and free

Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet

Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound
A steady place to let down my defenses

Loving you was dumb, dark and cheap

Loving you still takes shots at me

Found loving you was sunshine, but then it poured

And I lost so much more than my senses

Cause loving you had consequences

So im done Loving you,

Im done with feeling useless and im done with you not loving me back

Goodbye Jonah

Love y/n'

You pulled up a dead rose that was sitting in a vase near you and sat it with the letter

Looking around you sighed

Picking up another piece of paper you sat down once again to write

'I hope that one day you can find yourself and become a better man, i hope you can get the treatment you need and i hope that you will find someone who will love you till the day you die. I hope you can find a steady place and peace in someones arm's'

With one last look around you sighed and left through the front door not giving another glance back

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Im sure jonah is not like this at all but ive been listening to this song and it speaks to me because ive been in a situation like this before. Its not my best imagine but i wanted to get one up for you all.
I recommend listening to the song as it is my favorite song at the moment and i feel that it says alot about me and all that.

Hope your all having a hood day!

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