Patricks p.o.v
patrick?patrick what are you doing? why are yo-?! dude stop what
why is my head telling me to stop? i mean all im doing is hugging her i mean she needed a hug she looked desperate for one.
or maybe i was,
ok ok.. i admit she is pretty and funny and stubborn and cheeky and annoying and beautiful
wait what was that??
stubborn, cheeky and annoying
i dont even know if im complimenting her or insulting her.
right now we're still in the embrace,hugging eachother. She has cried on my t-shirt and its an umcomfortable feeling,yes a wet t-shirt is umconfortable,she has her head buried into the crook of my neck and it tickles, everytime she moves her head i have to fight the urge to not laugh, i mean i can't laugh in this situation, she might actually murder me.
"Patrick?,"i heard her vunerable voice croak, i think it just melted my heart.
"yea?"i ask quietly whilst rocking back and forth and hugging her, i dont know why i have not let go yet.
"your right i am pushing everyone away," she said quietly into my neck causing a shiver to run down my spine,i bite my lip to stop myself from laughing. "im sorry for being a bitch," she continued and she started to run her hands through my hair
ok things are getting weird now
"u-uh im sorry for b-being pushy-y." i stuttered, damn you running your hand through my hair, i felt her smile into my neck. i coughed,"uh i mean sorry for being an ass."
"you don't need to apologise for being absolutely right." she said this time moving her head from my neck and looking me in the eyes and showing me that breath-taking smile that i wish i could frame and put on my wall and look at it everytime i feel down,
thats creepy..moving on
why do i almost get the urge to just lean in and kiss her??
oh yeah because she's leaning in,
PATRICK
DONT
DONT DONT
NO
NOPE
luckily i listened to my head this time and ducked my head and swiftly kissed her cheek and not make it look like i was avoiding her lips touching mine
that would be so wrong of me, i unlatched my arms from around her waist and took a step back because of the awkward and uncomfortable position we were both in, i shoot her a smile but she looks lost.
well done Patrick for leading her on
she coughed awkwardly and shot her stare to the floor, i sighed and scratched the back of my head.
"well i better go then." i say after a few awkward moments of silence and i head for the window,yeah i usually climb out back.
"i haven't gone to bed yet," she states when i open the window,
does she not understand that i am trying to get away from the awkwardness because im terrible at making conversation after nearly kissing the girl who i am meant to guard, i mean how unprofessional would it be to kiss?it'd be so so so unprofessional
god i sound like a 40 year old woman who wont date her 24 year old colleague
make up an excuse
"ummm Honey wants me to clean her car." i say quickly pursing my lips into a straight-line,"is that alright?" i ask, she sends me a sad nod and looks back down to the ground, oh now i feel guilty
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underappreciated me (patrick stump fanfic)
Fanfiction*Finished* sequel name: 'Things aren't the same anymore' zara Blantley the underAppreciated girl, she never spoke up if she did she was interuppted, she was forgotten by teachers and well she was just another loser according to everyone in school. O...
