I opened my eyes quickly
I sat up in the bed
My breathing was heavy and I had sweat pouring down my face and back.
I whipped my forehead with the sleeve of my Tshirt.
My head was throbbing, the hangover stormed right in. I stopped and stared at my Tshirt for a minute as I let my arm float in front of my face. I looked over to see Diego laying next to me.
"What?" I said to myself under my breath
This was the shirt I wore last week to the show in LA? Diego wore that same thing too...I glanced over and seen his beanie lying on the floor where he tossed it off that night
"Lane? You ok?" Diego sat up and put his hand on my back and gently rubbed it up and down
"You're sweating girl"
I turned to look at him.
"You aren't mad at me?!"
He arched his eyebrows,
"Why the fuck would I be mad at cha' Lainey" he said smiling and leaning closer, he pressed his forehead against my shoulder
"Just about Palm Springs and all the bullshit..." I began, I wanted to tell him his friendship mattered more to me than anything
"Palm Springs?" He said, looking confused as ever
I got up and put my hand on my hip. Was he avoiding talking this all out? I walked over and looked out the window of the bus. Outside the Venue in LA. What the fuck
"This is LA? Did we drive back overnight?!?" I said, frantically
"Drive back over night? What? Yo, I think you had a bad dream baby girl?" He started to get up and put his beanie and pants back on
"Hes driving the bus back right now and we goin to my place... I thought?" He said, still looking confused
"Yeah" I said, it almost sounding like a question
I went to my purse and dug out my phone. I looked down at the screen. It was Saturday the 11th,the day after the LA show.
That was the
Worst
Dream
I've
Ever
Had
More like nightmare
No ditching work, no leaving my apartment, no Palm Springs, no nearly fucking Steven. No friendship fuck ups. That I know of
Holy fuck. I must have blacked out and slept hard. But, did I still sleep with Diego? Fuck, I can't even remember
Why was I having all these dreams?
I went to grab a bottle of water. Damn I needed it.
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We started to pull up to Diegos apartment building. "You coming up?" He asked reaching out for my hand... I was just sitting there starting blankly trying to remind myself it was all a dream
"Yeah, hey can I steal your shower possibly?" I asked, feeling like I needed to wake up from that shitty ass drug induced mess. I still was afraid to ask Diego what all happened between us last night. I don't think chemistry like that can be manifested into a dream. But I didn't want to bring anything up without him doing it first, so I'll forget it for now. Even though he was hard to forget. "Of course .. You don't gotta ask"
We got all our things off the bus and walked into his apartment building. Fancy
I wondered where Steven was? I didn't see him on the bus at all. Maybe he went home
We got inside and he plopped down on his couch.
"damn still got that Christmas tree up?" I said laughing
"Yeah fuck it" he said laughing back, "ay there is towels in the bathroom"
So far, no awkwardness.
I walked to the bathroom and shut the door behind me. I looked at myself in the mirror. Fuck.
I haven't drank smoke and done whatever the fuck I had last night in SO long. I guess that comes with the territory of being best friends with guys like them. Party animals man.
I turned the knob on the shower and the water started pouring out. If I had a shower like this at home you'd always find me there. The bathroom filled with steam. I got underdressed and went to step in, the bathroom door opened up.
"Uhm I'm NAKED" I shouted, giggling and covered my boobs up as quick as I Could, I didn't know who the fuck was coming in so I froze, they got a face full of my ass though
"Yes I know baby, that's why I'm here" I turned around and Diego was standing behind me starting to undress himself. Fuck.
He started coming closer, I couldn't move. I had to process. He started to kiss my neck...
All while I processed these things;
#1 My best friend and I obviously did fuck last night. #2 I was sober now (with a hangover) but 100% sober and so was he #3 I wanted my best friend BAD, He was fine as hell #4 Why has this never happened before now? Cause I've been missing out
I never wanted us to cross this line but man, crossing lines never felt so good
