This is the End

What have I done?

I wish I could run,

Can I start again?

I want to go back,

And change everything I have wronged,

A second chance,

To look into your eyes and see the light,

But when I look, pain and regret,

Promises broken,

The tears flow,

It's clear to see,

My good isn't good enough,

This is what happens when all you touch turns to dust?

My best intentions,

My biggest flaw,

It doesn't even matter how hard I try,

Watch time fly out my window,

Days go by and I realize,

At least you're still my friend,

We didn't break and burn,

But in the end it doesn't even matter.

It's only a game,

One we play in fear,

Weighing us down,

We're falling apart,

Barely breathing,

With broken hearts,

But were holding on,

Barely holding on to each other,

I'm hanging on to the words you've said,

You left me here alone; I may have lost my way,

Haven't forgotten my way home,

But standing on the edge,

I'll take the opportunity before I miss it,

The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,

I'll slit my wrists again,

All I want now is to be with you,

You know I have been everywhere else,

Knew me better than I knew myself,

Words are at a loss,

So I'll take one more step,

Over the ledge.

- - -- - Elizabeth McKay