MY SO-CALLED LIFE [SLOWLY BEING EDITED]

CHAPTER 11

CHAPTER 11

After my so-called father did his dirty deeds,he left me laying on the floor. I just laid their unable to move, shocked about what just happened. Now I regret of ever coming back here. Part of this was my fault, I should've known this was coming.

I stood up wobbling, feeling the soreness of my legs so I held onto the wall. I made my way to my bathroom. I took a shower, scrubbing all the shame and dirt away. I wish my brother never left me. I wish that I left with him so my dad never seen me as an easy target.

Anger slowly eating me up. I'm mad at him, no not mad, I loathe him. I wish not to see him again. If I ever see him again, I will kill him myself. He did this to me, if it wasn't for him being so selfish and only thinking about leaving this hell-hole with his girlfriend, this would've never happened to me.

The next day, I decided not to go to school. Luckily, my father went to the police station. He does go their every so often just to hang out with his friends and he usually doesn't come back until late evening, so staying at home will be completely safe for me.

This is actually the first time that I ever skipped class. I don't know how this is going to affect the scholarship that I wanted. But right now, I could careless about the world. Sometimes I wonder why me? Out of all the billions and billions of people in the world, why was I ever graced with such family?I wonder if anybody will even miss me if I try to end my agony? Who was I kidding? Of course, no one will.

I quickly got up and went to the bathroom to look under the sink. Bathroom cleaner. I grabbed and stared at it. This will be my ticket to the other world. My ticket to finishing my own life.

I walked towards my bedroom and comtemplated for a minute. Then I got up again and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen. I decided to leave a suicidal note for my so-called father not that he even cares.

'Dad,

By the time you get this note I'd be long gone. Gone from the world I once knew. I will no longer be a burden on you. Please know that no matter how things went after mom died, I still love you as my father. You may be my abusive father but I know deep down inside you, lays the father I once knew. I will forever be thankful for everything you've done for me, and everything you've given me.  So as a payback, you'll find my bank card on my bed. Keep it! I saved up enough money to last me for the next five years. Use it to look for my brother, when you find him please let him know how much I missed him and how much I loved him. For all it's worth and everything I did wrong, I'm truly sorry! If you find me gasping for my own life, please let me be. I just want my agony to end. Goodbye dad!


love,
Angela
I folded my note and left it on my bed. I then grabbed the bathroom cleaner and took a big swig into my mouth. I sat by my windown and stared at my sorroundings before blackness took over me.