Chapter 4

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~Louis's POV~

Harry hasn't spoken to me at all since we had the fight. I can't deny I'm a bit angry at myself and him. I mean I practically told him to get out of my life which I never wanted but he actually listened. It is really hard for me to admit that I miss him. But I do even though he hurts me, I miss him with all my heart.

"Louis what is it you seem a bit down lately" Liam asks interrupting my thoughts

"Nothing mate, I'm alright" I respond sipping on my drink

We were currently in the school cafeteria since it was lunch. Liam sat across from me and next to me sat this girl Eleanor who for some reason decided to start talking to me.

I mean I wasn't popular but I wasn't at the bottom of the social scale either. I was closer to popularity then most because of my looks and because I hung out with Liam.

"Louis your eyes are so beautiful" Eleanor says twirling her hair in her fingers

"Thanks El" I say awkwardly suddenly realizing that she's flirting with me. She lets out a loud laugh.

"Omg Louis you're so funny, I love it when you call me El" She says putting her hand on my shoulder

"Okay I'll make sure to do it more often if it makes you happy" I say

"Aww Louis you're such a sweet guy" Eleanor says moving impossibly closer to me

I look around and spot Harry glaring daggers at Eleanor. His jaw is clenched and he is griping the side of the table. Harry's jealous?! Maybe this way I can get him to talk to me again. I know it's wrong of me to use Eleanor like this but I can't help myself.

"El I love your outfit today it really defines your body shape" I say wrapping my arm around her

"Thanks Louis" she says giving me a kiss on the cheek

"Eww look at that kid he's so fucking ugly I swear if I looked like that I would kill myself" Eleanor says her voice filled with disgust

"Plus he's gay how gross" Eleanor continues

"Umm I'm bisexual and one of the most popular guys here Harry,is gay" I state

"Ya but you see the difference is you both are really hot so no one minds really" Eleanor says as if it was obvious

What a bitch now I don't feel as guilty for using her. I suddenly remember my plan. She squeals and giggles when I attack her sides beginning to tickle her.

"Louis stop it!!" She squeals laughing

"Alright alright" I say removing my hand from her sides and wrapping them around her again still slightly annoyed with her

I look across the table and Liam is giving me a confused look. I shrug it off and look back to where Harry is sitting and realize he's gone. I look around the cafeteria searching for him. I spot him when I realize he's walking over to us.

"Hey Harry" Eleanor greets twirling her hair. Even though she's trying to get with me and Harry's gay.

"Shut the fuck up bitch, Louis I need to talk to you" Harry says impatiently

"How rude!! Louis are you gonna let him talk to me like that?!" Eleanor says all of sudden changing her flirting back to me

"Well he's kinda of right" I state looking at her

Liam coughs hiding his laughter. Eleanor looks at me in shock and crosses her arms

"Louis I won't give up on you!! You're to fucking hot to give up on!!" She says as if making a great point

"Ya whatever" I say getting up to walk away with Harry

"Louis" Liam says giving me a warning look

"It's fine Liam" I say settling him down

He nods his head and I walk out of the cafeteria with Harry and he leads back into the supply closet. I lean against the door as Harry begins yelling at me.

"Why the fuck were you flirting with her!!" Harry yells at me clearly upset

"Because I can Harry because its my fucking life!!" I yell back at him

"Really so you were just staring at me the whole time you were doing it for fun!!" Harry yells

"You noticed that?" I say lowering my voice

"Of course I fucking did!!" Harry yells

"Well to be honest I was trying to make you jealous." I say slightly ashamed

"Why?" Harry says calmly

"Because you weren't talking to me anymore, and I-I I missed you a lot. Like a lot a lot." I say looking down

"Which I don't know why you get jealous really since you clearly don't like me. But I'd do it a thousand times again just to get you talk to me, but I know I have played with you like that and-" I ramble on

"Louis, I understand" Harry says interrupting  me

I let out a breath of relief finally this can all be over. But will it go back to the way it was? I really didn't want that.
Harry pulls me into a hug which I'm hesitant to return.

"I missed you so much" Harry mumbled into my hair

"I missed you too" I respond truthfully

"But I can't be around you anymore Lou" Harry says kissing my hair

"What? Why not?" I say panicking

"I'll just hurt you again , and that's the last thing I want to do to you" Harry says sadly

"This is because what I said in your car isn't?! I didn't mean it Harry please don't leave me" I say desperately

"Louis I don't want to but it's what's best for you" Harry says his voice shaking

"If you don't want to then don't please" I say hugging him tighter

"I'm sorry Louis, just remember I don't hate you, I never did. I could never hate you" Harry says pulling away from the hug

"No Harry please, I'd rather have you in my life with you constantly leaving than you completely gone" I say my eyes watering

"Louis please don't make this any harder, I'm sorry for ever causing you pain" Harry says walking towards the door

"Harry!" I say desperately

"Goodbye Lou" Harry says walking out the door

I stand there in shock. Harry's gone just like that. He's officially left me for good. I feel tears running down my cheeks. I let them fall encourage them even. I grab the closes thing near me and through it at the shelf. I continue throwing things feeling anger build in me.

"We promised!! We fucking promised!!" I yell my voice hoarse

I throw everything around. I feel the anger leave my body and sadness take over instead. I collapse to the ground in sobs. I curl up into a ball and stare at the door hoping Harry will come back. He doesn't

"Don't leave me, I love you"
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A/N: No Larry!! Oh my Larry heart, why did I do this to you?! Why?!
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