Why cant I just end myself already? Like. What's the point? I'm easy to forget. Obviously. I really don't wanna live, But I've got people forcing me to. If it were really up to me I'd be gone by now. Letting people be happy without me. Honestly, since what happened, I don't feel anything. I'm numb, Already hurt myself. And don't DM me asking if I'm okay. I'm fine. I don't want anyones sympathy or attention for this. I'm just venting. I was Ganna hurt myself more but my friend came over and occupied me. I'm really fucking bummed out. Not even girl Scout cookies help. Not even Xbox. Dude I wanna die. End of story. After all that I've been through I don't think I can handle anymore, I just want it all to end. I want it all to fucking end. I'm not as happy as I used to be, I used to be so happy even if I never showed it. I loved living since I was with a person I loved. Now that's gone and I just wanna be out of this world and out of peoples hair. I'm just burden and a toy, use me for acouple of months and get tired of it then move on to someone WHO WILL NEVER TREAT YOU AS WELL AS I DID. Who will NEVER be as loving as I nor accept you as I will. I don't understand. I've been nothing but good even in their eyes I was perfect. So why leave. So why abandon me. So why lie. Why even continue to stay with me while they were breaking me in the process. Im done with it all. I just want to end it. I just..want to die..honestly.
