jumbled thoughts and feelings

dreams-

i've always dreamt of being kissed in the rain. i've dreamt of seeing you in your most vulnerable state, open and willing to say anything. i have always dreamt of watching the raindrops cling to your dark hair, your long eyelashes, your white T-shirt that i can almost see through. i have always dreamt of putting my hands underneath the wet fabric, tracing the contoured lines that tell me how many times you've been to baseball practise this week, and i have always dreamt of my forehead against yours, as you whisper that you love me dearly, and then pull me closer. i dream of your lips upon mine, igniting something inside the deepest parts of my soul, so that, now, there is a fire burning deep within me, and nothing is dark. nothing is lonely.

but sadly, i live in a place where there is rarely rain, and there is no you. so the dreams of happiness, of that fire warming even the darkest portions of my being are only just dreams.

-s.h.