It was all to hard. Having to pretend to smile or laugh. Having to pretend I'm happy when I have these suicidal thoughts. I just couldn't pretend anymore. I just couldn't.
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Reason Two
It was all to hard. Having to pretend to smile or laugh. Having to pretend I'm happy when I have these suicidal thoughts. I just couldn't pretend anymore. I just couldn't.