confessions on the wall - lashton

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Ashton: 7:13AM
hey, sorry, i fell asleep
around 9ish. something
wrong?

Luke: 7:34AM
Nah, everything's just
great.

Luke: 7:35AM
And it's okay, I figured
you were already alseep.

Ashton: 7:36AM.
you don't seem "great."
what's wrong? if you
don't wanna talk about
it, that's okay too. but
i'm always here to chat,
even tho i fall asleep early
in the night like an old man.

Luke: 7:37AM
Really, it's fine. I was
just... Thinking, y'know?
And thank you. That
actually means a lot.
Obviously the same
goes to you, I'm always
here to talk. Plus I rarely
sleep because my brain
hates me and won't let me
no matter how hard I try to.

Ashton: 7:39AM
thanks. i know what you
mean, sometimes i find
myself thinking too hard
about life and i get upset
and can't sleep. although,
my doctor did prescribe
me this really good
medicine to help me sleep.

Luke: 7:40AM
Yeah, that must be nice.

Ashton: 7:43AM
anyway, onto a lighter
note, whatcha doing?

Luke: 7:44AM

Well, since I procrastinated
and put off all my homework
that's literally due tomorrow
at 8, I plan on doing that.

Luke 7:45AM
Hey, so you go to Ridgewood
High too, right? I mean, obviously
since you were writing on the
bathroom walls. Do I, like, know
you? Have I seen you before in
real life?

Ashton 7:46AM
i'm sorry, i actually was under
the impression that this was
real life but... 😂 no, i don't go
to school at all anymore. my dad
is the basketball coach and i
go and visit him sometimes.

Luke: 7:47AM
Really? Dude, your dad is like
the best. I don't play basketball
but he's always so nice to
everyone in the halls and stuff.
And what do you mean you don't
go to school?

Ashton: 7:48AM
i said what i meant, and
meant what i said. after my
cancer got worse, my dad
decided to pull me out of
school. he said he didn't
want to make me waste
all my precious time sittinag
in a classroom... it was kinda
cool at first, but now it just
makes me feel like he's given
up all hope.

Luke: 7:50AM
Damn, I'm sorry. At least
you don't have to do school.
How about your mom? Is
she a little more supportive?

A

shton: 7:51AM
that's probably the funniest
thing i've heard all day.
my "mother" walked
out on my dad and i
when i was eight months
old. ever hear of a deadbeat
mom?

Ashton: 7:53AM
and it's not like my dad
isn't supportive, it's just...
he's never really been
good at expressing his
feelings. and i know that
he's just scared. it's been
just the two of us for so
long now that we just
rely on each other for
everything, y'know?
without me here, he'd
just be really lonely. no
one to look after him and
everything. i get that he's
an adult and can manage
just fine, i'm just afraid that
he won't be able to move on
quickly and be able to go about
his life and just... get stuck.

Luke: 7:54AM
I can look after him
once you're gone. I mean,
I won't bug him every
second of the day, but I
can talk to him a little more
at school and see how's he's
holding up.

Ashton: 7:55AM
would you really? that
would mean so much to
me. thank you, l.

Luke: 7:56AM
That's so weird, talking
about you in past tense,
I don't like it.

Ashton: 7:57AM
you'll have to get used
to it eventually. but, hey,
i'm probably not helping
you have a better outlook
on life with all of this
negative talk so let's not
talk about my illness.

Luke: 7:58AM
I just don't understand you.
Honestly, if I were you, I
would be hiding in my room
crying all the time. Hell, I
do that now and I'm not
the one that's quite literally
dying. How are you so
positive?

Ashton: 8:00AM
truthfully? that's what i
did. when i first found out,
all i did was cry and hate
the world. but i saw how it
effected my dad, it just made
him so much more upset about
the whole thing and i just
couldn't do that to him anymore.
so, one day i just decided to suck
it up and enjoy the time given
to me while i'm alive.

Luke: 8:02AM
Wow. You're probably the
most selfless, strong person
I know.

Ashton: 8:03AM
yeah... i wouldn't bet on that.