H E R

weak

Not even 6am yet and I'm unable to bring myself out of bed can't move can think about anything else but what could've been. I don't wanna go to school today...I don't want to move today...don't wanna breath today...don't want to be alive today.... She said she felt trapped by our relationship but now I'm back to being trapped by myself and my own thoughts see you came along and set me free, free from the madness in my head and around me. The mere thought of you silenced every bad thought and thing. Now whenever I think of you it brings more pain. When I think of you it makes me think more, makes me hurt, more makes me not want to be anymore... it's not been a full day yet...but I know me...and I'm not going to be over it anytime soon. I never knew I could miss something so much... This hurts more than when I Tom left me...and that shit shook me to the core. And now somehow every piece of me is non compliment with my constant commands of to either stop feeling and shut down again, or find some kinda of fix to take my mind off of shit.