He calls me ugly to his boys.
A dark-skinned girl with 4c hair wasn't considered attractive to boys back then.
However, I knew he liked me, only in secret.
Hiding by dating only white girls and bashing any black girl that he sees to keep his facade alive.
He can't hide his fascination, it's obvious to anyone who observes.
He ignores to receive attention. Gain her attention by putting her down.
He will never confess his love. Never live in his truth.
He will deny his desire to keep a good face for his friends.
Then run and claim he'll never be with the ugly girl while being in love with her.
