you weren't just my star, you were my whole damn sky

im sorry i loved you...

im sorry i loved you... i never thought it would hurt this much to miss you, yeah it's been a year but my heart is still aching. i miss everything about you. your smile, your laugh, your kisses, the way you held my hand, the way you made me feel important and the things you said to me... i miss all of it. and maybe everyone is right, i should be over you, or the i need to just forget you but i simply can't. you are the only person i've ever truly loved. you were my first. my first kiss, my first love, my first heartbreak. you were all of that. and that kills me to think, but that's because i'd give anything to have it all back, to have everything we once had all back. to have you kiss me and tell me goodnight every day. send me goofy pictures and tease me about mine. i want you and everything we had back... i miss it. i miss you. and i'm sorry... i'm sorry i cared so much, i'm sorry i was so clingy, i'm sorry i was always texting you, i'm sorry i loved you... i wish we could have had it all work out. for it all to be better, and maybe this is the way it's supposed to be... but maybe you are supposed to be mine. and truthfully deep down i have this stupid thing where i hope we do end up back together... but i know that's just my hopes getting up. i'm sorry for anything that i ever did wrong... and most of all i'm sorry i loved i never thought it would hurt this much to miss you, yeah it's been a year but my heart is still aching. i miss everything about you. your smile, your laugh, your kisses, the way you held my hand, the way you made me feel important and the things you said to me... i miss all of it. and maybe everyone is right, i should be over you, or the i need to just forget you but i simply can't. you are the only person i've ever truly loved. you were my first. my first kiss, my first love, my first heartbreak. you were all of that. and that kills me to think, but that's because i'd give anything to have it all back, to have everything we once had all back. to have you kiss me and tell me goodnight every day. send me goofy pictures and tease me about mine. i want you and everything we had back... i miss it. i miss you. and i'm sorry... i'm sorry i cared so much, i'm sorry i was so clingy, i'm sorry i was always texting you, i'm sorry i loved you... i wish we could have had it all work out. for it all to be better, and maybe this is the way it's supposed to be... but maybe you are supposed to be mine. and truthfully deep down i have this stupid thing where i hope we do end up back together... but i know that's just my hopes getting up. i'm sorry for anything that i ever did wrong... and most of all i'm sorry i loved you... 💔