locked in || a Rarl fanfiction ||

c. 3

carls pov.

i'm helping Deanna in the yard, and enid approaches me when she walks away.

"wanna come over and smoke tonight?" she asks me, "or drink- if you want?"

"are ron and Mikey gonna be there?" i ask.

she shrugs. "i mean... i was hoping maybe it could be just you and me-"

i chew on my lip. i don't really wanna go without Ron. he made me less nervous yesterday.

"i understand if not. i wouldn't wanna hang out with me either." she acts sad.

"that's not it- i just- i wouldn't want Mikey and Ron to get jealous that you're hanging out with me instead of them." i lie, making up a stupid excuse.

"oh. okay." she looks down, frowning. "they don't have to know."

can she just take the hint? i don't wanna.
Enid's cool and all, i'm just weirdly uncomfortable around her. like something feels wrong.

"i'm all sweaty though, I gotta shower." i chew my lip.

"you can shower at my place." she smiles, and puts her hands in front of her body, squeezing her boobs between her elbows.

Her cleavage is practically hanging out. is she trying to seduce me? does she not know that i'm gay?

"but my razors and everything are at home." i say.

"why would you need to shave?" she bites her lip, slightly smirking.
"my facial hair grows really fast." another lie.

"mm okay..." she winks a little, biting her lip.

enid

he glares at my cleavage, which i take as a sexual sign.
"c'mon, it'll be fun." i smile, holding back from smirking.

"okay." i finally get him to agree, and later we end up at my house.

-

carl.

enid keeps trying to touch me. like placing her hand on my shoulder when she laughs, or brushing her hand against mine when handing me water.
and it's obvious.

I agreed to come over, but only if she didn't make me drink.
and after i showered in my own house.
she had a horror movie on, and we ate popcorn.
i got jump scared, and she hugged me and hid her eyes.

she had my shirt bunched up in her fists, and she laid her head in my chest.
I felt eager to separate from her.

she notices my uncomfortableness, and looks up at me, "what's wrong?"

I shake my head. "nothing- i um... im gonna use the bathroom."

she nods and i leave, my heart beating rapidly.
i don't wanna be here.
i don't wanna be here.
not at all.

I walk back out and sit on the couch, keeping a bit of space between Enid and I.

"carl?" she sits on her knees, and faces me on the couch.
"hm?" i mumble, half hoping she'll ask me to leave now.
she clears her throat, and brushes her hair behind her ear. "are you gonna kiss me, or what?"
"i um- i-"
she rolls her eyes, and kisses my lips.
i don't feel anything, it's empty; and feels half hearted.