Who Can You Trust?

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As the doctor comes into view, I don't have to sit there and hear the next words that's going to come out his mouth. I want to hear how sorry he is, I can't hear she didn't make it.

I should have been faster, I should have never let them take her. I should have should have never let her question my loyalty. Now it's too late.

2 weeks later

I sit in the back with shadows as everything plays out. I can't believe this shit. I'm hurt angry just everything. Like what do I do now?

It wasn't suppose to end like this. My mind is telling me to go on a killing spree. My mind is telling to just off myself,but is that what Akoni would want?

How to I live knowing when I wake up in the morning she won't be in my arms.

"You want to hit this?"

I look over to a sad Young that's trying to keep it together

Shay is down there with the rest of them crying her eyes out. So many fake people I can't fucking stand it.

"Naw, I'm good. What now Young?"

He kicks the pebbles on the ground with one hand in his pocket.

"I don't know K,I don't know if ah nigga coming or going. She wasn't suppose to go out like this. I just keep thinking it's my fault"

"You and me both. Then the police still fucking with us hard. They can't take us in because of all the shit they was doing. But there out still fucking with us just from that have alone"

"I know, Akoni was the master plan of shit"

Shay walks up with the baby. Even Bells hasn't been the same. She just cries for no reason all the time. She was a happy baby before all this bull shit.

I watch as they lower her body in the ground throwing dirt over the casket.

"Y'all ready to get out of here? I can't take this anymore"

They both nod before getting in the car.

We ride up to a Mexican restaurant. I'm not really hungry but I know they might be.

After ordering our food we sit and wait. The waitress is starring at me hella hard. I know that look and it's a look of a waste of time to me. I can't even look at a woman the same any more. My urges that use to hit me almost every minute of the day has disappeared since Akoni's been gone.

I pull my phone out looking at my pictures, I just want to sit down and cry by myself while I smoke pounds. I sense the girl walking closer but I keep ignoring her. I see her hands lean on my thighs while her low cut shirt drops low as she whispers in my ear.

"Mmm can i have a taste papi?"

"Bitch you got 5 seconds before I throw your country looking ass across this room."

"You playing hard to get?"

Out of no where Shay grabs the girl by the hair and starts going to town on the bitch. Young and I walk grabbing the food. He picks Shay up by her waist before walking out.

"My sister ain't been going a fucking month and these hoes already throwing there nappy unjuicy pimple pussy l at you. I'm tired of all this shit. I just want my sister back!"

It takes everything in me not to break down. We all stand there hugging eachother in the middle of the walk way.

Getting to the hotel, when I open the door Cherry is sitting in the chair facing the door like he's waiting for some shit.

"Everybody sit, I have important news about myself today that I would like to discuss with my family"

I don't think I can take anymore bad news. The way he talking like he about to die or got aids or some shit. I fuck with his life style but I fuck with him. That's my muthfucking brother/sister.

"Ready?"

We all look around the room nodding. He takes a envelope out before taking a deep breath. The next words that come out his mouth changes my life forever.