K: Hi, Beauty.
Beau: What took you so long to answer?
Beauty's voice seems a little bit annoyed. She's the jealous and insecure type who's afraid that I'm going to cheat on her with another girl.
K: Actually I was at Ming's.
Beau: Oh, why? You never go there.
K: Well, uhm...
I can't tell her the whole story. Nopety nope. If she knew the truth she would start screaming and crying and who knows what else she could do. I have to lie to her for now.
K: Ming yesterday fainted due to high fever and I had to bring him medicines on Wayo's behalf.
Beau: Oh...that's why you haven't been answering to my texts today.
K: Yeah. I had lessons in the morning and in the afternoon I went to Ming's.
Beau: I see...I hope he gets well soon.
K: So, how are you? How's going there?
Beau: I miss you so much, I want to come there but actually I think I'll be back a week later than expected.
K: Why?
Beau: My grandma's not feeling very well, so I have to stay home with my little sister while my parents take her to the hospital for various checks.
K: Don't worry dear. It's more important that you help them and stay next to them. It's a difficult time and they need you beside them.
Beau: I know, but I'll miss you more.
K: We have plenty of time to spend together, so don't think about me and focus on your family, okay?
Beau: What a great boyfriend that I got. I'm so lucky!
K: Don't flatter me too much or else I'll get used to it.
Beau: You deserve every praise.
At that moment I felt so guilty. Yesterday I was kissing Ming and now I'm having a kind of sweet talk to my actual girlfriend.
Beau: Okay sweetheart, now I have to hang up 'cause my mom is calling me. Talk to you later!
K: Okay, byeeee!
She hung up and I sigh. This is so tough. Why did I have to take the dumbest decision in my life? I don't want anyone to suffer because of me and look at me now. I gave hope to a girl who deserves someone better than me, someone who isn't as selfish as me who put his "safety" before her feelings. At some point, I will have to tell her the truth, but that's not now. She's already worried due to her grandma's health, she doesn't have to be sad because of me too. As I got out of my car and entered the shop to buy dinner, I made a promise to myself. I will take this week as an opportunity to think seriously about this matter and take a definite decision. I will be by myself, I won't see Beauty and I won't meet Ming, so I can think straight without being deceived by sweet words, some puppy eyes or cheesy pickup lines.
I return to Ming's room with some food and he still has the same sad look as before. Does he really have to be that sulky over a phone call? I should be the one mad at him for pinning me to his bed.
K: We should eat this before it gets too cold.
M: I already set the table, put the bags there, I'll take some dishes.
K: You don't need to, we can eat the food from the container.
M: If you say so...
We start eating and there's an awkward silence. Wow...he's sulking too much now.
K: Why are you like this?
M: Like what?
K: You're silent and you're just poking your food with the fork. Does something bother you?
M: Actually, yes.
I was already prepared to beg to make him talk, that I was a taken aback from how fast those words came out from his mouth.
K: W-what it is?
M: It's how fast you ran away from here as soon as she called.
K: I just went out to take her call and I'm not avoiding anything.
M: You could've stayed here and talked to her. I wouldn't have said anything.
K: I felt more comfortable talking to her on the way to buy food.
M: So you wouldn't feel guilty about what happened yesterday?
K: Sorry?
M: You're avoiding this topic since this kiss happened. I told you that I didn't want to hang on this rope anymore but I'm still here not knowing what to do if I have to hate you or keep loving you.
K: Well, sorry if I'm confused as fuck! I was kissed by a guy who annoys me all the time and that I might like while I'm still dating my girlfriend.
M: W-wait? What did you say?
Until Ming asked that I didn't realise the words that I blurted out a moment ago. Am I fucking stupid? What the fuck did I just say? I promised myself to take my time and now I basically told him that I might like him and considering him. Wow Kit, you really fucked up.
K: N-nothing.
M: Did you really said that you might like me?
K: Uh, no? You heard it wrong.
M: I'm sure I heard it pretty well.
K: No you didn't. I said that I might like you as a friend.
After that, I stand up from my seat and I walk towards the door, ready to make my exit because I am embarrassed by myself and I just want to go to my room and hide under my blankets. I stretched out my hand to reach for the doorknob when Ming speaks again.
M: Why can't you just admit it? Why it's so difficult?
Those words hit me like a knife. "I'm a coward and I can't say out loud what I think" I wanted to say that, but I remain silent. Time passes, none of us dares to speak, we're just standing there as we froze. Then I take a deep breath and without facing him I speak.
K: I need some time to think about what to do.
M: How much?
K: Uh?
M: How much time do you need?
K: A week? Like until Beauty comes back.
I hear him sighing and I can imagine him rubbing his nape while thinking about what to say.
M: Okay, I'm willing to wait for you. I mean I waited for months, I can wait one more week, right?
Without speaking I nod while opening the door and rushing out of his room. After closing the door, I stay for a while with my back leaned against the wooden surface. I must be crazy, that's the only answer to my behaviour. However, it's not the time to complain about my actions. I have to man up and finally face the matter that I have been avoiding all this time. I definitely need to take a decision and put an end to all of my problems. As I raise my arm to the sky to encourage myself, I walk downstairs ready to learn how to be brave and stand up for my own happiness.
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Mingkit ~ A sudden rainy night
FanfictionMing is always thinking about Kit. Kit doesn't know his feelings yet. What will happen when it suddenly starts raining?