i hate myself so much for smiling like a complete idiot whenever you talk it's like my brain doesn't want me to get over you smhh maybe if ur voice wasn't so perfect and ur personality and ur stupid ass humor that i love and ur dumbass pretending you don't love me maybe id get over you cause you'd be like every other male i talk to and my heart wouldn't speed up so much and i wouldn't feel the need to always talk to you and check my phone every morning for a message from you but no ur so fricken great and its straight up poop cause im stuck with you cause id never drop you no matter how much it hurts ur my best friend and i actually need you but if we weren't best friends you wouldn't been gone months ago...your dumbass makes me so fucking gay this isn't right
