When We Crash (When Trilogy #2)

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Be Brave

"You're... you're drunk..."

His eyes were filled with amusement because of my stupid response. I don't know how this guy manages to make my heart skip a beat or how he manages to fry my brain with those remarks.

He smirked in amusement as he looks down on the paper cup that he's holding.

"I'm pretty sure am." Aniya at napailing sa sarili niya. Hindi ako nakasagot. Natatakot ako sakanya. I don't know what's running through his mind; I don't know what was that head shook was for. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang iniisip niya saakin.

I wanted to know, I wanted to ask him, I wanted to talk to him. But I'm such a fucking coward. I couldn't even admit to myself that I still love this man sitting in front of me—okay, or maybe I have already admitted that to myself the moment I saw him on his front door but I still don't have the courage to entertain my feelings for him.

Honestly, I don't want to feel this anymore. I don't want to feel that kind of pain anymore... the pain of being lied to; the pain of being deceived by the person whom you love the most, the one whom you trusted the most.

But this stupid muscular organ that pumps blood to my body won't stop panicking whenever he's around. And these unwelcome creatures on my stomach won't just stop chasing each other every time that he looks at me.

"How do you do that, Beatrix?" nag-angat siya ng tingin saakin.

"D-do what?"

"That. Making me say things that I've never say before."

"You're really..." I paused.

"Drunk, I know. But now I'm sober... that's all you can say?" Aniya at huminga ng malalim. Hindi pa rin ako nakapagsalita and he looks disappointed. What does he wants me to say? Gusto niya bang sabihin ko na nagwawala ang buong kalamnan ko ngayon at nabuhol ang dila ko sa mga sinabi niya kanina kaya hindi ako makasagot ngayon? Damn this guy! He's corrupting my brain!

"Sumabay ka na lang muna kina Eli bukas..." Bigla niyang pang-iiba ng topic.

"Bakit?" I asked, getting anxious. Nainsulto ba talaga siya dahil sa wala akong masagot sa kanya kaya aabandonahin niya ako bukas?

"Maaga akong aalis bukas, ayaw kitang gisingin." Sagot niya at medyo nakahinga ako ng maluwang doon. I see, maaga siya sa airport bukas.

"Kailan ka uuwi?" tanong ko. Fuck! How I missed asking him like this. Yung tipong hindi pa man siya umaalis ay tinatanong ko na kung kailan siya babalik just because I can't stand to be away from him.

Napangisi siya. That smirk, I know what that means. He gets me."I'll be gone for the whole week." Sagot niya.

"O-okay... Fly safe."

He smiled at me. "I will..." He whispered. "Now let's go back there."

That night was fun and exhausting. Lumabas kami ni Yael ng kwarto para puntahan ang mga pinsan ko. Gabi na pero nasa beach pa rin kami at nagkukwentuhan. Nang mga bandang alas diyes na ay nagpaalam na si Yael na babalik na siya sa kwarto para makapagpahinga na dahil maaga pa siya bukas. We didn't sleep in the same room. Kaming apat na babae ang natulog sa kwarto kung nasaan kami ni Yael kanina.

Sina Yael naman ay sa kabilang kwarto natulog. That room has 3 double decks. Kasyang-kasya na sila doon at may sobra pang isa.

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I proceeded to room 401 while holding Mr. Melchiades Sanchez's chart. I see, he's admitted again. He's been like this for the past two years. Kailangan kasi siyang salinan ng dugo parati. Almost every month ay nandito siya. Some doctors even did a number on him but the old man is just too strong. He keeps on fighting for his wife and for his grandkids.